Reflection In Amber - Alcoholism Song (Lyrics in description)

Hey, old friend, remember the start?
Back when you were just a spark in a paper cup,
Laughing loud in the backyard dark,
We were kings of the night, never filling up.
First sip tasted like freedom, like fire, like fun,
No chains on the bottle, no damage done.
But somewhere the glass turned to iron, the buzz to a blade,
And I woke up a stranger in the mess that we made.
I love you, I hate you, you beautiful curse,
You lift me to heaven then drag me to worse.
I swear every sunrise I’m done with your game,
But dusk hits the doorbell and I’m calling your name.
You burn going down, but you steady my shake,
I’m sick in your arms, yet I’m yours to break.
Oh whiskey, my weakness, my one trusted lie—
Stay close, stay away, just let me get by.
I’ve buried the ones who danced in your flame,
Stood graveside and promised I’d never be the same.
Yet here’s my reflection in amber again,
Same trembling hand, same original sin.
You promise the party, deliver the storm,
I’m happier chasing you, sadder when warm.
The taste is a razor, the burn is a prayer,
I gag on the truth but I’m already there.
I love you, I hate you, you beautiful curse,
You lift me to heaven then drag me to worse.
I swear every sunrise I’m done with your game,
But dusk hits the doorbell and I’m calling your name.
You burn going down, but you steady my shake,
I’m sick in your arms, yet I’m yours to break.
Oh whiskey, my weakness, my one trusted lie—
Stay close, stay away, just let me get by.
I’m drowning in silence when you’re out of reach,
A hollowed-out echo on an empty beach.
Without you I’m raw, every nerve set to scream,
With you I’m a ghost in a fevered dream.
I’ve begged tomorrow for one honest chance,
But tomorrow’s a mirror that knows my dance.
I’m chained to the bottle, I’m chained to the fight,
And both of us bleed in the neon light.
I’ve begged you for mercy, you laughed in my face,
Turned every promise to ash in this place.
But deep in the wreckage, a voice starts to rise—
It’s mine, and it’s steady, it’s cutting the ties.
I’m scared I’ll fall short, I’ve fallen before,
Yet something inside me is kicking the door.
I loved you, I hated you, you beautiful curse,
You carried my sorrow and made it feel worse.
Tonight I’m not swearing, I’m making a vow,
I’ll crawl through the fire to get out somehow.
Your burn taught me strength when I thought I would break,
I’m weak in your grip, but I’m learning to wake.
Oh whiskey, my demon, my oldest goodbye—
I’m walking, I’m shaking, I’m still alive.
Leave me alone…
I’ve got one more morning to fight for my own.

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