#UW55

Audio diary recorded on my 55th birthday in Kurohime, Nagano (for the record: born in Saskatoon Saskatchewan but left 10 days later and on the go ever since), & now home, patched together with a buncha photos, mostly around my birthday week but a few others in there to "make weight" and a couple of Easter eggs (keep your eyes out)… Lots of peace signs, coffee cups, great hats, and cornball poses plus of course my darlings sneak in here and a few powerful character characters met-up on this recent ramble

Importantly, this is my soliloquy as a sign post of another checkpoint, with a bit of ukulele of course, expressing my gratitude for friends who stuck with me along the way, expressing a few sentiments about this year (broke so hard, fixed in ways I couldn't imagine, tidied many life administration things up, built some large things or effectuated the building anyway) and riff about my slightly curbed ambitions yet still so many things to do, I have schemes & list of course (zines & books and songs)

Plus sincere request for understanding and acceptance, maybe even apologies to anyone that I might have slighted, not shown up for, ran my mouth when trying to be cool or figure myself out, and otherwise not at my best. I'm trying, always

Finally, as an aside a spontaneous expression about this situation where I'm having really vivid dreams about sliding doors, parallel lives and a cognitive déjà vu… There's a large vocabulary about the phenomenon or circumstance but I'm still sort of piecing it together as I love my life as it is, I'm so happy to be where I made it yet haunted by these various iterations

Do you have insight into this? More of a vocabulary? A way to frame this as a different mind model or something something? Sure, tell me about that if you like

Anyway, I'm truly shocked you've read this and/or watch the video cause it's just me putting what should be in a diary and possibly private but that's no fun and the heroes I look towards are the writers and artists who have found their true vocation by floating their deepest sentiments out to the world to spark others treading through this human existence by chronicling their own existence in a manner of speaking, choosing words and forms thoughtfully, tripping over roots, sitting on benches and seeking just the right implement

Fondly, dvo

Birthday: 8/16
Video: 8:16