Do I Feel Bad About Hurting the Paramotor Community?

I woke up to a message from a flight instructor asking if I had considered the damage that I've caused businesses within the paramotor community.
I was pissed. In what world would someone be in a crash that came as close to killing themselves, then find themselves in the ICU, and almost a month later leave the hospital only to be stuck in a wheelchair for another two months, living with intense pain that’ll never go away?
As you sit there with your thoughts in this new immobile reality, isn’t it safe to assume that you’d have considered just about every aspect of this—not just the crash, but the impact it has had on paramotor companies.
You know that. People know that. He knew that. So why? It’s obvious; he wanted to tell me that my crash screwed him over, and he was going to lose money from it. I know the guy, and though I’ve never met him in person, I’d recorded a podcast with him. During that podcast, I firmly positioned myself on the side that stood for smaller class sizes. As a business-minded person, he argued that having the biggest class size possible was in the best interest of the student, and he was prepared to die on that hill. But when the recording stopped, we chatted for a bit longer, and he made it clear that he was a businessman, and money was his North Star. This couldn’t be further from what I believe.
The crash was entirely my own fault. And while I could have avoided it, I’ve read countless testimonies of pilots who reported that they don’t check the rear central lines.
Checks may have evolved somewhat since my crash. Many people have dubbed checking the rear central lines “the VELLA CHECK.” It sounds Russian.
I was smashed into the ground. I’d broken so many body parts. The paramedics loaded me up and drove me away from the scene of the crash. My wife was distraught and phoned my friend to pick up my crumpled paramotor and glider. When he dropped it off at our house, he removed the cameras and, once he’d gotten back to his house, uploaded the footage. While I was arriving at the hospital, he was beginning to share images and clips of my crash with people in the flying community who he felt could try to piece together what had happened. As people were seeing how it unfolded, I still had no clue at all. I told my wife that I didn’t know why it happened. It just collapsed. I told her that, if there was something wrong, it should be on the footage. In that moment, my wife told me this footage shouldn’t be released until we knew what had happened, and I totally agreed.
But then thing happened in a way that I would not have imagined.

TIMESTAMPS:
00:00 - The message
00:52 - Money does things to people
01:14 - Philosophical Differences
01:21 - Purple Heart Shouldn't Pay
02:29 - The Impact on Paramotor Businesses
02:54 - How I Received the Wing That I Crashed
03:28 - I ALMOST Didn't Crash (The First Video)
04:51 - 2nd Attempt (The Crash)
06:04 - Was it MY Fault?
06:44 - SMASHED into the ground
06:55 - My Friend Shared the Footage (NOT me) Love you, Clint.
07:34 - The MISSING Evidence
07:57 - I Was ASKED to Share the Footage
08:30 - It WAS My Fault! Pilot Error!
08:52 - The Answer to His Question
11:02 - The Way Forward

THE CRASH VIDEO:    • Paramotor Crash ALMOST Ended My Life