Identity Crisis - It only takes one season to let you question about your passion.

I don't want you to watch this video because it's 8 mins long. No cat and no bike.

I have been through some major life events.

Season reflection. While everyone is celebrating their good results, I only have some thoughts regarding to the rest of my life and cycling.

1am in the morning, after I had a very eventful ride.

Being a racer --- it's a huge identity I picked up this year. I tried to gave myself all out, all the time, in all races I have attended. I enjoyed daily training, lifestyle and everything surrounded to be a good racer.

But then there is always a result attached to each race. It's one of the metrics that people often get over emphasized about. And if not thinking about it carefully, being a racer can be a dangerous identity to make you special but also break you completely.

Being an athlete is something I have never thought I could be. The process is painful but rewarding. However, stepping 10 thousand steps back to look at my life, is it all worth it?

This video is for those who tend to burn too fast and too hard, like to set a high standard without patience. and maybe have a bad vision to see what has been achieved.

Slow burnt like a stew but keep burning and keep shining.

Music: Don't be so serious by Low Roar

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