JøN - Addicted to the Damage (NU METAL)

Dark and emotional metal exploring inner conflict, control, faith, anger and release.
Groovy nu metal riffs, heavy atmospheres, raw vocals and 2000s-inspired intensity.

🖤 Artist: JøN
🎧 Genre: Nu Metal
🌀 Themes: manipulation, identity, faith, collapse, resilience
🎚️ Created with experimental and atmospheric approaches

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I swear I’m done, I swear I’m clean
But I still crave what cuts too deep
I know your tricks, I know your games
Still I flinch when you say my name

I build walls just to tear them down
Lose myself just to feel around
Every promise tastes like rust
Every touch feels wrong but just enough

I see the cracks, I see the truth
But I keep choosing parts of you
I tell myself I’m in control
But I keep digging the same hole

I’m addicted to the damage
I know it hurts, I still don’t stop
Every warning turns to static
When you’re the only thing I want
I’m addicted to the damage
Even knowing what it costs
I keep calling it love
While I’m losing myself in the loss

You don’t scream, you don’t fight
You just twist things till I’m not right
Make me doubt my own skin
Convince me I’m the problem again

I replay words you never said
Carry guilt that lives in my head
I break first, you stay calm
Like you planned it from the start

I trace the line, I cross it slow
I know exactly how this goes
I see the knife, I hold it still
Then hand it back so you can feel

I’m addicted to the damage
I know it hurts, I still don’t stop
Every warning turns to static
When you’re the only thing I want
I’m addicted to the damage
Even knowing what it costs
I keep calling it love
While I’m losing myself in the loss

Say you’re sorry
Say it’s me
Say this pain is what I need
Say I’m weak
Say I’m wrong
Say I’m lucky you stayed this long

I’m addicted to the damage
Yeah I know it’s tearing me apart
But silence scares me more than chaos
And being alone feels just as hard
I’m addicted to the damage
I know I should let this rot
But I’d rather bleed with you
Than feel nothing at all

I know it’s poison.
I still drink it.

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