alex udinov (nikita) | little house

(this is me venting and complaining.To skip it, don't read the first six lines)
I am frustrated, as a vidder. Does that even exist, vidder's frustration? If not, I think I just invented it. It's just that, I have all these amazing ideas, and I start viding them, and then, after i've completed a minute or even more I simply cannot bring myself to finish the video. And that, my friends, is really frustrating. I have exactly six almost-finished videos, and I have no idea when I'll be able to complete them.

(if you're here because you decided to skip the venting, thanks for sticking with me ;D but, this is the Nikita part of the description. You might want to skip another few lines if you don't want to hear about this xD)
Ugh. That felt good. Sort of. Anyhow, new fandom! I know, you're probably more surprised when I vid an old one by now. I know, I'm bad, I shouldn't start all these new tv shows but I just can't help myself! And Nikita is one of those shows I've always wanted to watch but never did; I saw the first episodes some time ago but never got into it, and then last week I saw all the episodes in three days (no kidding. My mom literally dragged me out of my room to check if the light of day would burn me). To be honest, I get those who stopped watching after a while, as a long term thing I guess it can be boring, but as a four days marathon I can assure you, it's really entertaining ;)

So, as you could wildly guess, Alex is my favorite character. LOVE her, she's the reason why I kept watching, her and her relationship with Nikita. I love her character because she's damaged goods, let's face it, but I love how she struggles with her past, and doing the right thing, and even knowing what the right thing is, and showing she's good enough.. she's just trying to find her way. And yeah, I'll admit this season hasn't been the best for her so far, but who knows? I still like her plot with her family and I want to see where that's going.
Also what I really loved as I said was her relationship with Nikita, how she saw her like a mentor of sorts - a sensei, I mean ;D I miss how they would trust each other even when they couldn't trust anyone else, and have each other's back no matter what.. Alex has even admitted she gets why Nikita did what she did, because her dad was about to shoot her and she had no choice, I think she's just too proud to go back to Nikki even if she wants to. And I noticed there's a lot of hate for Alex and love for Nikita but if you ask me, Nikita has already made up her mind about who she is while Alex is still fighting with herself to find that out, that's what's intriguing about her.

Rambling more than usual, wow. Didn't think that was possible.
Enjoy!

Voiceovers.
"I wanna be happy. I wanna learn what it's like to wake up in the morning and not feel sad."
"mama?"
"stop it! Please, stop, please!"
"there is one thing I want you to know: I am Alexandra Udinov, daughter of Nikolai Udinov. And this is your reward."