10. Pathetic Victim / i'll take what's left of your empathy until next year

Aim and fire
Don't breathe out
Don't let it in
You'll fuck it up

Hold me tight
Change my mind
Make it your way
I'll shape my life

Let me explain
See through your eyes
See what's inside
Once I fall again

Don't let me go
Check my vital signs
I'll be alive
If you are my coat

If you will
Don't leave me
You know pretty fucking well
—
You're my everything (cause I know you)
You're the only thing
So why would you stand right there (cause I know you)
pretending I don't exist?

Are you the victim after the damage you’ve done?
You cry over your own lies
And the worst part of hurting victims
Is thinking you are one

They say god picks
The prettiest flowers
But what does happen
To those who don't get water?

You could've had the best of me, but you decided to feed the worse
Cause you weren't there when I was weak, while I was there for your low

But, why does my mirror seems so blurred
Maybe I just need some time alone

I clean up the steam around and I hear the echo strike
Can't tell if I was looking at the mirror or our times
Guess the dirt was under my skin before I clean yours up
The lack of self-awareness has built a monster without flaws
(It's just another life)
—
You're my everything (cause I know you)
You're the only thing
So why would you stand right there (cause I know you)
pretending I don't exist?

Am I the victim after the damage I’ve done?
I cry over my own lies
And the worst part of hurting victims
Is thinking I am one

—

Let me know when you're done with your shift
So we can talk for a few hours

Tell what did I do wrong
Tell what changed back then?
Was it me? Was it you?

I can't find myself
in your picture
looking nowhere
right to your face

you decided everything
i had no voice in any of this
you closed the door in front of me

I just hope you don't
hit your head against the wall
and break your bones
It's all you have left

I'll take what's left of your empathy until next year
but until then

happy birthday to me