philip + elizabeth | ashes on the ground

'Do you ever have to 'make it real' with me?'
'Sometimes'


i don't know what is it. no idea. i just opened sony vegas twice and i did this and i don't know if i like it but this is... do you know this feeling when you just need to vid something to move on? i needed to vid them to move on. and for the first time i wasn't thinking when i was vidding my mind was clear. i wasn't checking the lyrics, planning, anything. i just vid it. so it's not good, not even decent it's just nothing. and i am still not sure how I feel about it. because i feel nothing.
weird weird weird.

okay this show is called The Americans if you don't watch it, please do. This show is slow sometimes. so it's not action action action but it's so much more. I love Philip so much. He is one of my fav characters. He is so complex. And his relationship with Elizabeth is complex. I don't understand Elizabeth. I just don't. In first two seasons (i watched them some time ago) but she always try to challange him. and make everything more difficult for him and i believe she loves him i do, somehow, but she is not letting him in. and then in season 3 it's like philip is doing this, you know. cutting himself away from her. pushing her away. it's what they do.

this quote:
'Do you ever have to 'make it real' with me?'
'Sometimes'

it's the most amazing quote i've heard in season 3. and probably it's something that it's so true about them. it's the most honest lines they said. it's them. i love this quote so it will be in every video i will ever make about them or multicouples or multifandom. really. so get used to it.

okay. so that's it.
oh. matthew rhys is pure gold. his acting is mindblowing.