My Husband Complained of Headaches Now He's Gone Forever

In this episode, I sit down with my dear friend Heidi Rose, a woman whose story will move you, stretch you, and break you open in all the ways that matter. Heidi lost her husband, Jason, to brain cancer, and the journey there was anything but simple. She opens up about the heartbreaking transformation she witnessed as cancer took over, not just his body, but parts of their shared life. We talk about the night he passed, how their children processed it, and what it means to grieve, rebuild, and keep living.

But this conversation goes deeper than loss. Heidi speaks about her healing through trauma, through childhood abuse, and through unconventional paths like EMDR, Al-Anon, and plant medicine. She talks about finding her voice, regaining peace, and learning that real love sometimes means letting go.

This episode is for anyone who's walked through pain they never thought they'd survive. It's for those navigating grief, complex family dynamics, or simply trying to find meaning when life doesn’t go to plan.

You’ll walk away from this episode changed. I know I did.

Heidi, thank you for your honesty. Thank you for letting us in.

This is grief. This is healing. This is the Roller Coaster.

Key Moments:
0:00 The Moment Jason Took His Last Breath
5:22 Who Jason Was Before Cancer
9:03 When Personality Changes Mask Something Deeper
12:28 "I Have a Brain Tumor" And the Immediate Intuition
16:00 The Surgery That Changed Everything
22:00 The Letter That Confirmed He Was Terminal
24:20 Hospice, Letting Go, and the Death Rattle
33:01 Life Before and After Loss
39:44 A Chance Encounter at the Gym
43:31 Growing Up in Abuse & Becoming a Peacemaker
47:02 Healing Through a 12-Step Program
53:34 The Frog Showed Me Something

Guest Info:
IG: @‌heidicamillerose (  / heidicamillerose  )

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