hold me jesus - part 2

[Verse 1]
I used to think that faith was something earned
Like keeping score at Sunday potlucks
Counting all the ways I measured up
Smiles on cue, hands raised just enough
I learned the language, learned the lines
But never learned to rest my mind

[Verse 2]
My father's voice still echoes through the kitchen
Telling me that grace is cheap unless you suffer first
I wore my righteousness like armor
Every crack felt like a curse
I mistook fear for holiness
And punishment for love

[Pre-Chorus]
But I'm so tired of carrying this weight
Pretending I'm not breaking
I’m exhausted from trying to save my face

[Chorus]
Hold me, Jesus
I don't have the strength to stand here on my own
Hold me, Jesus
I'm letting go of everything I thought I owned
The pride, the rules, the walls I built
Hold me

[Verse 3]
There's a difference between discipline and shame
I confused them for decades
Thought my hands could save me if I worked enough
Every failure carved my name
Into a list I couldn’t erase
Chasing mercy at a ruthless pace

[Verse 4]
Last Tuesday I sat in my car and wept
Realized I've been white-knuckling salvation
Like it's mine to control
Like You were waiting on my perfection
But grace doesn’t come with conditions
And love doesn’t need permission

[Pre-Chorus 2]
I'm done performing for approval
Done pretending I'm not desperate
If You want my heart, You can have the mess in it

[Chorus]
Hold me, Jesus
I don't have the strength to stand here on my own
Hold me, Jesus
I'm letting go of everything I thought I owned
The pride, the rules, the walls I built
Hold me

[Bridge]
Maybe surrender isn't weakness
Maybe it's the only honest thing I've ever done
Maybe Your hands were always open
While I was busy trying to run
Maybe mercy doesn’t shout
Maybe love just waits it out
(Always open)

[Breakdown]
I'm here
I'm broken
I need You
No defense
No excuses
Just truth

[Final Chorus]
Hold me, Jesus
I finally understand I never stood alone
Hold me, Jesus
You're not a trophy earned, You're the way back home
No pride, no rules, just You and this
Hold me

[Tag / Refrain]
I don’t have to prove I belong
I was loved before I was wrong

[Outro]
Just hold me now
(I'm letting go)
No more striving
No more show
Just hold me now