What Awakening Actually Feels Like for a Narcissist

Why does becoming self-aware not immediately change narcissistic behavior?
Why do shutdown, defensiveness, and emotional distance keep happening — even after you can clearly see them?
In this video, I explain what awakening actually looks like for a narcissist, from the inside. Not the fantasy version where insight instantly fixes everything — but the real experience of awareness arriving before capacity, and why that gap is so frustrating for both the narcissist and the people around them.
This video explores:
• Why narcissistic patterns don’t change quickly after awareness
• What shutdown and emotional detachment feel like internally
• Why insight alone doesn’t rewire behavior
• The difference between awareness, regulation, and real change
• What recovery and awakening actually require over time
This isn’t about excusing harm.

It’s about understanding the internal operating system behind narcissistic patterns so real, sustainable change becomes possible.
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If this video resonated, I’d love to hear from you:
What part of becoming self-aware has been hardest — seeing the pattern, slowing it down, or changing it over time?
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0:00 Awakening Isn’t What You Expect
0:30 Why Awareness Feels Destabilizing
1:00 The Fantasy of Awakening
2:30 When Awareness Comes Before Change
4:30 Awakening in Real Time
5:55 Why Awareness Doesn’t Equal Change
6:20 What Recovery Actually Starts to Look Like