Still Not Home

Lyric

Left my name in an empty room
Didn’t lock the door behind
Old walls breathing memories
I pretend I’m doing fine
Suitcase full of almost dreams
Cracked shoes on borrowed ground
Every smile feels rented now
Every laugh’s a fading sound

I told myself this road would save me
But it just taught me how to ache

I’m far from home, but not moving
Just drifting town to town
Crowded streets, I’m still invisible
Nobody knows me now
I sleep with lights and open windows
Running from my own
I didn’t leave to be lonely
But I’m still not home

Calls get shorter every month
Voices sound like yesterday
They say I’m brave, they say I’m strong
I just learned how to look okay
Every job feels temporary
Every promise wears thin
I trade time for empty pockets
And a quiet place to sit

I chase a life I can’t remember
And run from who I’ve been

I’m far from home, but not moving
Just standing in the rain
Neon lights don’t warm my hands
They only say my name
I eat alone at midnight hours
Counting what I owe
I didn’t leave to be lonely
But I’m still not home

If I go back, I feel like failure
If I stay, I fade away
Every choice is just a shadow
Of a life I couldn’t save

Maybe home is just a feeling
I lost along the road
If I find it, I’ll be ready
Till then… I walk alone