How Trauma Made Me Someone I’m Not

In this video, I’m talking about something I recently realized that childhood abuse didn’t just hurt me physically or emotionally. It violated my sense of safety. It broke the trust between me and the adults who were supposed to protect me… and also between me and the world.

As a child, I thought it was my fault. I thought I would get in trouble if I ever told anyone. I felt completely unprotected and alone. And because of that, I learned very early that being myself wasn’t safe.

So I disconnected from myself. I dissociated. I played a role. I became who I thought I needed to be to stay safe.
But now as an adult, I see how that survival strategy turned into self-sabotage in relationships, in my daily life, and even in the way I talk to myself.

Now my healing looks like reminding myself every day that it is safe to be me.
That I’m protected.
That my body isn’t in danger anymore.

That old program might have kept me alive as a child… but today I’m ready to thank it and let it go.
I want to know my real self. I want to come back home to myself with compassion, softness, and love, not criticism.

If any part of this resonates, you’re not alone. 🤍


0:01 – How Childhood Abuse Changed Me
2:36 – Losing My Sense of Self
5:11 – The Old Beliefs I Learned
5:51 – Thinking I Had to Earn Love
8:34 – Fear of Being Misunderstood
10:24 – Why Rest Felt Unsafe
12:02 – Becoming a Bitter Over-Giver
12:41 – Breaking the Cycle for Good


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