outcast Ft. ANRI arcane

Something, something, edgy lyrics with edgier art....and probably some form of typo. very difficult to catch when you do everything alone.

got to record my uke bass (2:28) and my new nylon electric (1:39) in this one

Guitar/art/video: me

lyrics
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awake in the morning
with blood stains on my hands
without any action
i'm a criminal again
my words were quite clear
yet mistakenly insincere
I won’t fight for my innocence
cause i know that you won’t hear
my cries

i can see it in your eyes
that it's me that you despise
though there's nothing that's been said
i can feel your judgment
while the times we had were fun
i can see that things are done
this is the end

i felt those thoughts inside my head
were better off left never said
even as you leave again i still can't send the message in the end
i watched it all begin to fall
still i couldn't make the call
everyday i contemplate
was it love or hate
as the two halves quickly begin to conflate

connections are too complicated
to hold you means that i'll be hated
tugging me in while pushing me away
i'm left in a daze
unsure of what i can say

always knew deep in my heart
things would always fall apart
and i'll repeat these mistakes until i'm back to the start

Always trying to walk that line
The thinnest tightrope forced to move while i’m blind
I don’t know what you’re thinking
Red lights constantly blinking
Everything i do never seems to make it through to you
When does all the criticism end

i felt those thoughts inside my head
were better off left never said
even as i clearly see you scream at me
i shrugged it off again
i wish it all could simply end
i'm tired of always having to pretend
that i could be
exactly what this fucked up world is expecting of me

connections are too complicated
to hold you means that i'll be hated
tugging me in while pushing me away
i'm left in a daze
unsure of what i can say

always knew deep in my heart
things would always fall apart
and i'll repeat these mistakes until i'm back to the start

looking at today
things are still that way
on full display the world's dismay

broken nails and empty smiles
words of hopeless self denial
things were working for a while
before those truths began to pile
i don't know how to connect
to a world that seems to reject
everything that i am
our hearts may never truly reflect

i felt those thoughts inside my head
were better off left never said
even as you claw and splay
my heart away
i'll bear the pain today
knowing that life will never change
even if i fight it'll stay the same
Living in a world that’s strange
fucking deranged
all these useless thoughts are driving me insane

connections are too complicated
to hold you means that i'll be hated
tugging me in while pushing me away
i'm left in a daze
unsure of what i could say

always knew deep in my heart
That things would always fall apart
and i'll repeat these mistakes until i'm back to the start