It's Time I Address Everything. ("What Happened to Your Reactions?")

2020's coming to an end. It's high time I stop leaving you hanging.
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It's been too long guys. Way too long. I'm not even sure most of you who used to watch me still watch my videos. Either way, my silence ends today on the age old question: "Are you going to react to [this series] anymore?"


The simple answer is "No."


Longer answer is.. After 2 years of trying to constantly convince myself I can still do it if I try, I'm just.. tired of lying to myself, and to you. Truthfully, my burnout two years ago broke any love I had for making long term reactions, and the thought of going back to that now makes me want to cry.


I didn't want to let everyone down though, especially when we were all just starting to become a real community, which is why I kept pushing and pushing to get back into it. I hoped that the spark would come back. But it only came in tiny puffs of smoke, and never the intensity it was when I first started.


I still wish I could finish them. React to all the MHA seasons, Trollhunters, and everything new coming out, because DANG there are some amazing shows coming out right now. But I have to swallow the pill that it's just not going to work with what my heart wants. I can't create what I want in terms of reactions that is both visually appealing for you and mentally healthy for me.


I lost myself two years ago, when trying to consistently push through burnout made me hate what I once loved, and hate people I should love. The next two years have been nothing but a struggle to recapture who I was and what my creative ember wished to make. Maybe I'll never be the same, and that's kinda terrifying. But I'll try to handle it and see what comes next.


Please accept my humblest apologies; for leading you on this long, and for not being honest with you all sooner. It took a lot of self-loathing and reflecting to realize what was really going on. Take care of yourselves and remember that you have to take some to give some.



Whatever comes next, we'll have to wait and see. To 2021, and to hopefully better days.


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