La Douleur Exquise

Salutation friends,

La Douleur Exquise is french for describing a heartache caused by wanting someone that you cannot have. I mean, the title is pretty straightforward, isn't it? Easy come, easy go. heh. Strangely, however, the song is not all about "pain." The song is more "reflective," rather than it being ONLY about expressing the desperate pain of heartaches. It's about learning about yourself as a person, learning how to cope with pain, and learning about.... what you need to learn from the heartbreak.

Life sucks. Stuff happens, we clash, we cry, we break, etc. But that's all part of life... that's all part of growing up. Someone once told me that being a "man" isn't about being tough in terms of how well you can fight and how much you can bench press... but it's rather about how well you can handle negative situations. How do you settle disputes, how do you overcome heartaches, how do you handle the pain of losing someone valuable: - not just romantically, but literally losing that someone in this life.

Some tries to run away from the darkness. Some tries to distract themselves with materialistic things. Some distract themselves with booze and drugs. Some prays that it passes. And some... just takes the "easy" way out. I've attempted all those things (well... except doing drugs), and the valuable lesson I've learned from all that, is to keep moving forward. It sounds cliche and very obvious... I know. But sometimes, even the most obvious wisdom can be forgotten when the time of trial arrives.

Pray. Pray, whether you believe everything will go away or not. Just pray, and keep moving forward. I've been tested and I've been reminded. But most importantly, I've learned a lot about myself. Every pain that we go through, there's something we can gain from them. Cry if you need to... take a break if you need to... but never stop moving forward.

Yes, I did think of someone in my mind. There was someone in my heart as I was playing this piece in my dimly lit room. I don't know if she'll ever see me the way she did before. I don't know if our paths will ever cross again. I've messed up a lot, I've treated her poorly, and I've lied to both myself and to her. Things ended very abruptly and I regret a lot of things. BUT, through the experiences that followed after us breaking up, I grew up. I'm sure she did as well. I wish I can get a second chance but... who am I kidding? I can barely take care of my bonsai tree (it died, by the way). I hope she's doing well. I hope we can talk to each other again... someday. Until then, good night, my Felicity.

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