the thought of you - scruffpuppie (official music video)

'the thought of you' by scruffpuppie
writing, production, mixing & mastering by jodi shurbet
shot by me & @banana_yolk_
video sequenced by me
vfx by dr. filth (@toomuchmdma)
find where to listen to this and more of my music here: https://linktr.ee/scruffpuppie

lyrics:
all the time i question everything
and i feel like it's wrong
to pool my thoughts together wishing the list wasn't so long
and you tell me that im selfish
and i know its the truth
for who would sit inside her bedroom wishing that i could be with you
and i tell myself im worthy but i know that i am not
i will isolate myself and my skin will start to rot
and my heart will bust to pieces
they're too small to just pick up
see our lives will flash before my eyes
and my blood will fill the cup

‘cause its so scary
just the thought of u
and i am married
to the thought of u

see it's 6am and i am half awake and i am lost
i've been up all night and my heart feels like it's about to pop
all the drugs i take will overwhelm me til i am but dust
blowing through the wind wishing that i could find another rush
but the wind will die and i will wish for peace inside my mind
need to get away from hoping all the days will turn to nights
and my thoughts will stray and i will be okay to just get high
excuses i will tell myself until my final night

‘cause its so scary
just the thought of u
and i am married
to the thought of u

‘cause its so scary
just the thought of u
and i am married
to the thought of u

trust in chapter222