Feeling Like You Don't Belong | How I Found Home | Slow Living in English Countryside in Spring

Where is your home? Where do you belong? These are the questions I've been pondering about for as long as I can remember. Ever since childhood belonging was difficult to me. I always felt out of place - but I realised that's largely not because I was unhappy with the environment I was in, but possibly because I was unhappy with myself. It took me a long time to realise what home really is. Where I truly belong. It's still a work in progress and largely depends on my relationship with my inner, most authentic self.

I love this quote by Fernando Pessoa:
“The feelings that hurt most, the emotions that sting most, are those that are absurd - The longing for impossible things, precisely because they are impossible; nostalgia for what never was; the desire for what could have been; regret over not being someone else. All these half-tones of the soul’s consciousness create in us a painful landscape, an eternal sunset of what we are.”
I think it describes these feelings beautifully.

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Filmed on: Fujifilm XH2S with 33mm f1/4 lens
Edited with: Premiere Pro CC
Music: Epidemic Sound

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Sea location:
Cuckmere Valley, Seven Sisters Cliffs

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