I played Fantasy Town | *I am very silly and funny*

I played funny horse game steroid ver

I was hoping it would make me feel better but I somehow felt even worse after

hey guys welcome back to another 2am vent description lets go

ok so if you watched the video yes I recorded this in my parents car (most videos lately have been recorded there due to my parents being home all the damn time because work and my dad’s surgery) it’s actually really uncomfortable and the day I recorded this video was the only day it wasn’t raining (literally constant rain for 2 weeks bro like ye this is much nicer than melting but the audio quality is absolutely bonkers I mean I could record a better video using a milk carton) so yeah I either had to choose between disgusting audio quality or breathing

I am not even over exaggerating it was so hot in the car because I can’t turn on the car just for some air conditioning so I just sat there the whole time without a window open or anything (can’t have the neighbours hear me lmao) I kid you not I felt sick near the end I was drenched in sweat to record this video and this does not even include the mental walls to just push myself to record this

I can’t even record anything on my new pc either because as I said before my parents are always home and the wifi on the pc is garbage so we need to get that fixed (it only works with my mobile data and that is very inconvenient, battery draining and extremely annoying)

I hope one day I can have a decent set up which is comfortable but simple for me to use - one can dream

I hate how my voice sounds in this and like my energy was so low due to me dying and struggling to breathe lol I just sound so dead and ugh I am legitimately so boring if anyone I know irl would watch this video I would quite literally die in front of them and explode from embarrassment like the sheer thought of imagining a classmate of mine watching this is enough to make me explosion sound effect

anyways so yeah that’s the car story wooo on to trauma dumping and venting rn lets go gals

me when nobody likes me 😻 literally nobody at all like my friend(?) from a personal server with me n my homies legit just started blabbering about a recent event that was totally unrelated to my messages and it was rude as I was clearly upset and frustrated and in tears. so inconsiderate of them to just. ignore me and ?? girl you could’ve waited 5 minutes to say the news that almost everyone already knows and doesn’t care about !!!!!!!!!! of course out of frustration I left the server because in the state of anger I went with impulses and they have not messaged me about it or anything and I feel so weird because am I being dramatic or too sensitive but I feel like nobody likes me and then the person I’ve been the closest with this past month or so is the only one to message me but I feel so crap that I can’t get myself to say anything I do not know what to respond with and it is eating me alive

it hurts a lot because 2/3 of the people do not have the time to be friends with me and you know damn well these people are just choosing to do other things and to spend time with other people rather than with me

I get that we all have our own lives and stuff to do, but I’ve never been a priority to anyone. I wish I was

due to some health issues irl, my recording situation and self doubt problems, I have been unmotivated to do anything. I have so many things I want to do, but it’s overwhelming to find a starting point. The stress of summer ending and time rushing past so fast is depressing

who needs therapy when you can literally cram most of your thoughts in under 5000 characters on a random video’s description !!!!! you get to cry from the comfort of your own bed ezzz

anyways I’m probably just a cringe teenager lol I hope things will be better soon

sometimes being a YouTuber can’t fill in that hole in your heart that you desperately want someonse close to fill in

I want to be loved, I hope I get to deserve that one day

goodnight