no not you...YOU

I’m left with no distinguishable features
God, I barely even recognize myself.
Why does my reflection look so distant?
Why do I feel in a constant state of poor health?
It’s roughly 3 years since the doctors and I decided,
we’d take action so this disease wouldn’t spread.
Every day when I’d look down, I’d be reminded,
that I’d retained my life, but lost both of my legs.

At first I was content with these replacements.
Stronger than I ever thought I’d be!
But soon my self esteem flipped to abasement,
when people gawked at my anomaly.

NO NOT YOU…. YOU

Seems as though the sun stays out forever,
I remember how that heat felt on my skin.
Now all I feel is the occasional vibration,
through this system of sensors I’ve been set in.

They tried their best, but it just kept on spreading.
And within a month my arms were done as well.
And as you’d guess, so was my entire torso.
Now I’m not much but a cold mechanic shell.

I’ve never been afraid of not existing
(it’s everyone around me that fears that).
But all I feel is my spirit resisting this second chance of permanence I have.

NO NOT YOU…. YOU

As I vaguely stare (with visual prosthesis),
at an experiment not quite turned out as planned,
I’m left with no distinguishable features.
God, I barely even recognize this man.

An hour ago, I went to see my doctors,
and they said something has spread into my brain.
Not the disease, no this was something different.
When I asked what, they failed to fully explain.

A part of me interprets it familiar.
I guess it was just a matter of time.
A part of me says the other part’s inferior.
Change my brain but will it change my mind?

NO NOT YOU…. YOU

I've been livestreaming every Thursday and Sunday and I've been having fun re-recording some old Toehider songs. I've set up 3 cameras and some lasers, smoke machine etc and the cool thing is, the viewers at home can control all the cameras and lasers using simple commands in the live-chat. They also control the setlist, requesting songs from a 150+ song database which you can view here -

https://www.streamersonglist.com/t/to...

The performances are always far from perfect, wrong lyrics, wrong notes, wrong chords... and because the viewers at home are in charge of the camera/light production, sometimes things aren't perfectly in sync with the music (there's usually about 5 seconds delay in the live broadcast) It's very much a looser feel than what we're used to seeing musicians do here with playthroughs on Youtube and other places online. It's fun! We all have a great time chatting and laughing. Maybe I'll see you on a livestream soon?

THURSDAYS 10pm AEST
SUNDAYS 1pm AEST
Unfortunately there's no "golden hour" where everyone around the world can tune in at the same time, but we all try our best!
  / toehider  

VOCALS -
Shure SM7B
modded Golden Age pre-73 preamp
Joey Sturgis Tones Howard Benson Vocals plugin

GUITARS -
PRS custom 22
Martin OMCPA4
PRS SE custom 24
modded PRS SE Santana flipped upside-down

AMPLIFIER -
Headrush Pedalboard
Bogner Ecstasy Red pedal
The Marshall in the background is 100% for decoration (even though it's a great sounding amp)

Backing tracks are performed, recorded and mixed by me, usually featuring drums, bass and keyboards (sometimes there's extra guitars and backing vocals on there, but I'm trying to move away from that)