My Affair Partner Passed Away, Her Family Found Out, And Now My Career And Marriage Are About To...

My Affair Partner Passed Away, Her Family Found Out, And Now My Career And Marriage Are About To Implode

I have been married to Vera for 3 years, together 7. A year ago, I fell deeply in love with Amy ,and had been planning to end my marriage for her. I know it's terrible and not what my wife deserves, but we were the real thing. Two weeks ago, she had an allergic reaction when we were getting food after work, but she used her epipen and seemed mostly okay afterwards. She usually gets checked at the hospital after a reaction, but I asked if I could take her home and she could get her friend to drive her there because my wife was expecting me back. All I know is that she had a secondary reaction that evening and died. I didn't even find out about it until the following Monday, through a work email. It has been eating me up ever since and I will never forgive myself for not sacrificing an hour of my time to possibly save her. I sent some childish messages to Amy when I didn't hear from her over the weekend because I thought she was angry I didn't take her to the hospital. I am thankful she never saw them and ashamed that I assumed the worst. Our relationship was great and the highs far outweighed the lows, but I have always hated being ignored and I lose my cool when it happens. It is not a regular occurrence and I would have more than made it up to her.
Yesterday at work, Human resource and legal were in the CEO's office all day and my manager ended up cancelling our project meeting because he was with them all afternoon. I was on edge, but an affair isn't exactly a corporate crisis and I thought something would have already happened if anyone knew. I am now 99% certain it was about me. A few hours ago I received a message from Amy's phone which said "This is Amy's brother, Tom. I want you to know it was me". I tried to call but it went straight to voicemail, and none of my messages have been delivered.
I tried to call my manager more times than I should have and he sent a message saying "Please don't contact me until Monday morning. I can't discuss anything with you right now". So it looks like my universe is going to collapse. I am going to be fired and my wife will definitely find out why. All I can do is hope that Amy's brother only showed them the messages from that weekend, and they were bad enough. I have no family except my wife and daughter and nowhere to go. All of my friends are either people I've met through my wife, or my colleagues. On Monday, everything I've spent over a decade working towards disappears. I can't stop it. I can't talk to anyone about it. So here I am. I know cheaters are the devil so I'm not expecting sympathy, but this is making my chest hurt and I need to get it out there.
Relevant Comments:

somebody said, Did she report to you? Or did you just use your position to secure a promotion for her (purely based on your relationship and not her merit)?
Original poster replied, Her manager is my direct report. I joked a few times in sensual conversations how she still owed me for the promotion, and when she had initially asked about it I sent her a message with a pretty comprehensive list of reasons I didn't think she was ready. She thought she was so I asked someone at my level to put a word in. Over the weekend I basically said that she was unqualified for the role and wouldn't be able to survive doing it anywhere else. I am horrified but I thought she was being petty and playing games so I responded in kind.
someone asked, Curious, what was the 1% Amy had over your wife? Was it her ruthlessness in pursuing a married man with a young child? Was it her complete lack of moral compass? Was it the fact that your garbage soul recognized her whoreacity as equally trashy?
Edit: changed whoreishness to whoreacity. It flows better
They're both incredible women but they couldn't be more different.
Original poster replied, When my wife walks into a room, it's like a hurricane strike. Everybody sits up straight. She's tall and assertive and extremely intelligent. She's funny and quick and she dominates in a male dominated industry where they all love her. She's very straightforward and she can be far too blunt.
Amy was softer. She didn't have to be the smartest or the strongest or the most well read person in the room. She saw her job as a job and she wanted to raise a family somewhere cosy. We were going to grow tomatoes in the back garden and keep chickens for eggs and as pets. My wife would have designed an automated hydroponic system and signed us up to a subscription for a local egg co-op. They're just different people who touch different parts of my heart and my mind.

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