dreamonin / 梅ざらめ

おはよう。梅ざらめです。

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物語の始まり
登場人物は たったふたり あとは外野
痛い痛い心の奥底
啄ばむように、棘に弄ばれた

錆びて絡みついた鎖が纏わり付いた
どうしようもないこの心はまだ救えるだろうか

私のネイルは一夜でボロボロ
かき壊した傷は季節を跨ぎ冬まで かさぶた
陽炎ゆらゆら立ちのぼる道
重い足取りで回す自転車のペダルは
夏の暑い日 夢明けの朝

夜に沈む街並み
終電ももう終わったみたいだ 広い道
ぬるいぬるい夜を飲み込んだ
街灯が照らす 誰もいないスポットライト

夢に見るハッピーエンドの物語は
どれも非現実的で 淡い期待だけが膨らんだ

神様はきっといない 今でも
誰かを救う魔法もない 力もない
愛される自信が持てない
本当はつまらない私を隠し続けた

爪で引っ掻き剥がしたホログラム
指先から捨てたそれはまるで私の可愛気
謙遜の美学など捨てて
燦々たる日々は今、幕を下ろすよ
夢で終わるな 夢明けの朝

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The Beginning of Our Story
Just two cast members on this stage—
the rest are only spectators.
Deep inside, a tender ache,
pecked and played with by thorns that know no mercy.

Rust-bitten chains wrapped around me,
entwined like fate I cannot shed.
Can this broken heart—
still be saved, I wonder?

My nail polish chipped away in a single night.
The wounds I scratched open lingered past seasons,
scabbing into winter.
On a wavering road beneath a heat haze,
I pedal my bike with heavy feet—
a morning after the end of a dream, beneath the summer sun.

The city sinks into the night.
Even the last train has gone,
leaving behind an empty, endless street.
Swallowed by the lukewarm dark,
a lone streetlamp casts its spotlight
on no one.

The happy endings I dreamed of
were always unrealistic,
and only my pale hope continued to grow.

Surely, there is no god—
no magic to save anyone, no power.
I couldn’t believe I deserved to be loved,
so I kept hiding the boring version of myself.

Holograms I clawed off with my own nails—
they fluttered from my fingertips,
just like the charm I discarded.
Forget the beauty of modesty—
the brilliant days have drawn their final curtain.
Let this not end in a dream—
this morning, after the dream has passed.