bleeding on my guitar strings (read description)

this is an i dont know if i can call this a song / freestyle but i digress, i have to look back at old conversations with on of my abusors in order to win a legal battle and while i was reading our old conversations i got overwhelmed and reached to my guitar for comfort, i kept trying to sing but these were genuinly the only sounds i can make, this is probably the rawest song ive ever made, its all of my pain and grife of this triggering and also empowering process which is why this vidoe gets no # i dont really want this to be found but im posting it to let others see the ugly side of my music and that sometimes music is beyond lyrics the noise or notes i hit they where what i felt, the title of this song is bleeding on my guitar because while i was recording this thats exactly how it felt. I blacked out and my tears felt like they were my own blood, the melody signifies a panic attack (which honestly might be what i had idk) with the random crescendos and decrescendos , if this song resonates with you know your not alone comments are open to vent

https://linktr.ee/planet_.marz