Luna kom Floukru | 'I've Been Waiting For This Moment For All My Life' [TW: Flashing Lights]

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Fandom: The 100
Actress: Nadia Hilker
Character: Luna kom Floukru
Coloring: goldxnoir (edited)
Song: In The Air Tonight by Natalie Taylor, In the Air Tonight by Kelly Sweet

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Editing this helped me a lot during some really hard times this year. When I got ED or self-harm related thoughts I'd go do this or one of my sea mechanic/yumagna fics and it would distract me. And I'm kind of proud of the fact that I haven't relapsed for 9 months now, even though this has been such a bad year for me mentally and physically. So this edit is special to me because of that.

This song made me think of Luna.  A nightblood's destiny is the conclave and, following that, death or ascension to the role of commander.  They spend their whole lives waiting and training for this moment. One of the most tragic things about Luna's ending was that after all she did to escape this and form her own destiny, she ended up right back there. 

I find it really hard to believe that she could change that drastically so quickly. She was the kind of person who took the pain and darkness that life had given her and transformed it into light, into putting good things back into the world and I loved that about her. That she broke the stereotype of 'hurt people hurt people'. Because whilst that can be true, many people who have been hurt become some of the kindest people imaginable and do what they can to help instead of hurt others. And I don't know, I struggle to believe that someone who had that kind of mindset and empathy would do the things she did in her last episode. I can suspend belief and rationalize her actions and how she might have come to think that way and do those things (at least for the purpose of writing fanfic) but I still don't think it was true to her.  She deserved better.

And Octavia's line about her not deserving to be saved is particularly cruel and unnecessary after everything Luna had done to help people. I'm not sure why that to put that in. Like she was already dying did Octavia really have to twist the knife like that?

P.S. I'm very close to being able to start posting one of my sea mechanic fics so if you're interested in reading that, let me know and I can send you a link when I'm done :)

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