Shadows In The Dark - When I Need You The Most ❤️‍🩹 (OFFICIAL LYRICS VIDEO) N.o 48

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LYCRIS

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I push you away when I need you the most
I ghost you at night
Then text like a ghost
I light up a cigarette
Try to forget
But you're in my lungs with every breath

My head’s a mess and so is my bed
I still see your shape even when it's unsaid
I'm not alright
But I fake like I am
And I ruin the good just 'cause I can
I need someone
But I run from love
Always looking down
Never looking above
You tried so hard
But I made it hell
You held my heart
I broke it myself

I’d rather be numb than feel this shame
Pretend it’s a game
But I know I’m to blame
I lie to myself just to sleep at night
And pretend in the morning that I’m alright
I just want silence
But I hate being alone
Scroll through old photos
Stare at my phone
You’re in every song
Every damn chord
Still hear your laugh like a haunting reward

Ask what you feel or hope or see
Just give me a moment to finally be
The version of me you saw all along
Before I proved all your instincts wrong
Say it for me
Even if you won’t stay
Say it for the ghost who ruined your day
I just wanna hear you say you love me
Even if you never meant it
Even if it's ugly

X2
I push you away when I need you the most
I ghost you at night
Then text like a ghost
I light up a cigarette
Try to forget
But you're in my lungs with every breath

I told you I’d change
I swear that I tried
But I'm stuck in my ways
All twisted inside
And when you said "go,"
I said "okay"
But every part of me begged you to stay
I don’t want pity
Don’t want your care
But I fall apart when you’re not there
You cleaned my blood when I broke the glass
Now I’m drunk again
Stuck in the past

You deserve better, I’ve said it before
But it kills me now to watch you close that door
I just wanna hear your voice
Just one lie
Even if you fake it
Just give it a try
Say you love me
I won’t believe
But lie to my face so I can breathe
Kiss me once like you still care
Even if it’s not true
I swear I won’t dare

I scream your name when I’m high as hell
Fucking strangers just to hate myself
Digging nails into my chest at night
Just to feel something that feels half right
I drink 'til I forget your face
Then see you clearer in my fucked-up haze
I ruin my body
Break my mind
Trying to kill the love you left behind

Ask what you feel or hope or see
Just give me a moment to finally be
The version of me you saw all along
Before I proved all your instincts wrong
Say it for me
Even if you won’t stay
Say it for the ghost who ruined your day
I just wanna hear you say you love me
Even if you never meant it
Even if it's ugly

X2
I push you away when I need you the most
I ghost you at night
Then text like a ghost
I light up a cigarette
Try to forget
But you're in my lungs with every breath

I tear apart every part of me
Just to silence the voice that says you’ll never need me
I tear apart every part of me
Just to silence the voice that says you’ll never need me