river & the doctor // a last time

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PERFECT TIME TO UPLOAD THIS ISN'T IT. MATT IS LEAVING. I'M NOT OK. i'm sure i'll love the next doctor, it's just that I'M NOT READY TO LET HIM GO. AND THAT MEANS NO OTP ANYMORE. T_____________T I CAN'T DO THIS. everyone was worried about river's departure when the real problem was eleven's. i wasn't expecting this AT ALL. it's so WEIRD because it's in more than six months so we should have time to deal with the news but...but... TWO EPISODES. IF RIVER IS NOT IN AT LEAST ONE OF THEM I'M GONNA MAKE MYSELF A COAT OF MOFFAT'S SKIN. i reaaaaaaally want her to meet at least once 12 on screen. BUT I NEED ONE LAST SCENE WITH ELEVEN. I DIDN'T WATCH THEIR SCENE IN THE FINALE AS IF IT WAS THE LAST. IT CAN'T BE. I'M NOT READY TO SAY FAREWELL. I'M GOING TO CRY. i can't lose my otp and my doctor in the space of three episodes, that's not alright. EVERYTHING HURTS. ; ____________ ;

about the video...i tried. i spent so much time on it i'm sick of it so idk. the point was to show how tragic their story was and to use parallels (i was inspired by this brilliant video :    • amy & rory + doctor & river | always  ). like sometimes something one of them says can apply for the other as well you know. parallels. i suppose it's sad but really when i watch it the only thing i can think of is how long it took me to find the right clips for the right voiceovers. and the organisation of the voiceovers my god, it must be logical and sound smoooooooth, you have no idea of how much of a headlock it is. well except if you're a vidder obviously.

it takes a whole new meaning now that we know that it's soon eleven's end. maybe it was really their last moment with him being HER doctor. FUCK EVERYTHING I QUIT. my time is divided in two. sometimes i can't help hoping river will be back either in the anniversary or the christmas special. and sometimes i think i've seen the very last scene of my otp and i'm very very VERY HURT. 12 will be the doctor too, but river/eleven is my otp. not river/doctor. well maybe river/twelve will be nice too. probably. but never as good as with eleven. T ________ T I HATE ENDINGS.

OH AND TONIGHT GOT. AS IF I NEEDED THIS. I'M GOING TO DIE THIS IS TOO MUCH.

infos at the end of the video.