Lily Alexandre - Sharp Enough

Hey, I’m sorry that I haven’t texted back
This summer hasn’t gone quite the way that I expected
I hope you understand

I up and left her place, if you can call her apartment that
But passed out on the cold concrete front step
I dreamt I walked to you, on emptiest of streets downtown
Guided only by a sun that doesn’t set, but

This city wasn’t built to walk around in
You think you’re safe until you feel the wind that’s breathing down your neck
And I’ve seen you ravaged - in real life - by Parc avenue far too many times
To trust us as an exploration team
Been stranded in so many bathrooms by so many guys
I’ve convinced myself I know best what I need

So I’m finding solace in new places lately
Late nights in beds of people I don’t love
I like to make them all feel heavy when they’re with me
That way, they get it when I buckle up

Really, you’re lucky I don’t want you,
I love you too much to grind my teeth on you
You’re too easy to hold, form-fitted and warm
You’re a blanket that plugs in

And I miss you, but I can’t see you right now
I need to keep my eyes shut in the cold
Lest I fall in love with a brand new time of year
And I love you, but your teeth ain’t sharp enough
That I know I’m doing right by you when I sleep on your pullout bed
I fear that it’ll hurt you if I spend the night again
The last thing I want is to drain what’s left of my rosy cheeks through you
I’m not quite ready to be that human

'Cause you are tender in ways you are not aware of
I only notice 'cause I'm used to being scared
I wanna be there to hear you mumble while you're speaking
I want you to be there when I walk into the sea