[Synthv Original] Terrified of change ft. Kasane Teto

First of all i hope i got the japanese lyrics right!! if not i'm very sorry. I got reccomended deepl for more accurate translations and double checked but might've messed it up.

Second, I usually don't put anything in my descriptions aside from the lyrics but this song is a bit more personal than usual. In a few weeks I'll be moving out!! my family is very.. dysfunctional and toxic to say the least. I do try to love them the way they are but it has been very tough, lots of conflict, screaming etc blabla yk the drill. I hope i conveyed these feelings and emotions well. As much as i don't like my current life there's a sort of weird comfort in being miserable. I hope that when i move out and surround myself with better people and a way more healthy envoirment that I'll start being happy, or at least be more comfortable with myself. As the title says, I am terrified of things changing, wether it's gonna be positive or negative. I want to feel at peace with myself, and feel more human.

The anime clips belong to the bandori mygo anime, i really love the background/envoirment scenes in it and i heavily relate to tomori. Hope i did the clips justice and that it feels like it could fit tomori too, somehow. the flower clips are from YouTube.

Lastly, a bit selfish to say but i hope this song does well. otherwise i would feel a bit emberassed to have typed all of this out.

svp and instrumental link:

https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fo/lv86pk...

i would feel flattered if anyone would make a (vocaloid/synthv) cover of it if anyone would like to. I have never used dropbox before


lyrics:

Leaving my old stuff behind. I'm letting go of, my past
Taking my hope with me. I really hope it, will last

Finally ready to move on, 疲れた
Hurting from the damage that's been dealt, 眠りたい

Will i feel joy?
Will i find peace?
分からない 分からない
Let me feel like i exist, for once, just this once

Everything is changing faster than me, I can't seem to keep up, at all
Everything scares me so much! Becoming an adult, so fast

Finally ready to move on, 疲れた
Hurting from the damage that's been dealt, 眠りたい

Will i feel joy?
Will i find peace?
分からない 分からない
Let me feel like i exist, for once, just this once

Will i get hurt?
Will i feel pain?
分からない 分からない
Let me feel like i exist, for once, just this once

#synthv #kasaneteto #svp