dont fly away

pls read

long time no see!

i havent been uploading for such a long time, it's just i dont have a horse to ride atm, i got kinda bored from the old clips and i dont feel genuily happy lately, its like there's something nagging on me that keeps pulling me down, i feel like im annoying everyone around me and no one realy cares about what im doing anyways and im sure a few of you guys know that feeling and i dont know if im gonna upload other videos bc i just feel like nobody is watching them and i never like any of the things i do, like i see no progress in my work, i dont get better i feel like my videos are only getting worse so i dont have fun anymore making them, and i see all those videos of people with their horses and theyre beyond beautiful and it just makes me sad bc i almost dont ride anymore and horses have always been my life so far and they're slowly disappearing out of it and idk how to stop it, i sigh idk how to explain, but it doesnt matter bc y'all probably already stopped reading but nevermind i made you guys a little dressage video lmao
hope you like it bc i dont, i feel like i lost my edit skills i never had so idk but anyways it's not like im gonna delete my yt channel it's just, i won't upload anymore, or someone would convinced me otherwise but i doubt that, maybe im gonna upload some kind of 'goodbye' video, I'll see i honestly dont thinks so bc literally no one cared if i stopped making videos so basically this is it

Some footage is from xSencibel (   / xsencibel   ) go sub her she's an amazing rider & some footage is from superROSkamGIRL (   / superroskamgirl   ) also go sub her lol!

Humming bird - Alex Clare
Sony Vegas Pro 12