What Happens When Your Story Collides with Genocide? | Tareq Baconi on Gaza

A love story, a political narrative, and a tale of self-discovery converge in this intimate conversation. What happens when queerness, Palestine, exile, and truth-telling all intersect in one life? How do we reclaim ourselves when the world teaches us to hide?

In this episode of Out Loud with Ahmed, I sat down with acclaimed writer and analyst Tareq Baconi (President of the Board of Al-Shabaka: The Palestinian Policy Network, author of Hamas Contained) to unpack his groundbreaking new memoir Fire in Every Direction.

Together, they explore the emotional archaeology of first love, the silence of queer Arab boyhood, the inherited weight of the Nakba, and the price of telling the truth in a world collapsing under genocide.

Tareq opens up about the letters that shaped him, the rupture that reshaped his family, and the lifelong work of integrating queerness, identity, politics, and belonging—without apologizing for any part of the whole.

We also move through the political with brutal clarity: narrative, media, power, and why Palestinians are so often forced to “explain” themselves to institutions that don’t want to hear them. This is a conversation about shame and desire, generational rage and tenderness, chosen family and survival—and the impossible beauty of becoming whole while history is still burning.

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📖 Get Tareq Baconi’s book: Fire in Every Direction: A Memoir
https://www.simonandschuster.com/book...

More from Tareq:
— Al-Shabaka: https://al-shabaka.org/authors/tareq-...
— Hamas Contained: https://www.sup.org/books/middle-east...

CHAPTERS
01:08 Opening: Welcome to Out Loud
02:44 Why Tareq Wrote the Book
05:02 Reader Reactions & Emotional Impact
07:00 Integrating Identity & Politics
08:33 Writing Privately vs. Publishing
13:03 Returning to Old Letters & Reconstructing Memory
18:57 The Rupture: Love, Secrecy, and Shame
22:00 Publishing a Memoir During Genocide
32:04 Palestinian Maternal Rage & Legacy
36:01 The Childhood “Look” & Social Policing
39:58 The Weight of “Ayb” (Shame Language)
54:32 Exile, Diaspora Privilege & Estrangement
59:19 Storytelling as Resistance & Political Power
01:08:10 Is Palestine the Litmus Test for Humanity?
01:17:24 Closing Reflections

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