yoonmin • heart break au

[please wear headphones and watch I’m small screen!]
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Yoongis scrambled thoughts:
I find myself dreaming sometime, of a moment that I wish so badly would come back again. it felt as if you were running away from me and I couldn’t do anything to catch up. every time, it’s always the same, no matter how much I’d run to you I could never catch up.
I feel so empty. nothing feels the same anymore, and I seem to hate everything lately. I hate you the most of it all, I hate you for making me love you this much. I miss you. It isn’t fair, why did you have to leave like that? it hurts, a lot.
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Jimin died because of a car crash, on the day of their anniversary. Jimin, slightly drunk and so happy. Yoongi remembers it so clearly, Jimin talked to him about wanting more food, that made yoongi think love is dead and Jimin likes nothing but filling his tummy with food. yoongi remembers so vividly, how happy he felt at that day.
he remembers, So well, and he wish he didn’t.
car tires squeaking, the sound of a body hitting the ground. Yoongi would wake up every night, body drenched in sweat and eyes filled with tears that he’d end up sobbing the whole night. He hates it, he hates everything about it and he misses Jimin too much.
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It’s 2:16 am. yoongi helplessly found himself at the beach they used to go to together, eyes swollen from crying too much, drunk as heck with a beer bottle in his hand and nothing but a light sweater covering his small figure, too thin for winter’s cold weather.
“nothing is working out Jimin.” “what do I do?” His voice broke “How much more should I drink to forget I’ve ever known you? how do i just stop fucking loving you park Jimin?” he reseted his forehead on his crossed arms as the beer bottle slowly slipped out of his hold. Sat there, he cried that night, he heard nothing but the sound of his soft sobs. it sucked. it really did, but at least he didn’t hear those sounds that we’re drilling into the back of his head again. maybe because he was too drunk he would pass out any minute or maybe it was the sounds of beach waves hitting each other in the near distance. Didn’t matter, yoongi was fine with hearing just that.