Kiss It Goodbye - We'll Burn That Bridge When We Get To It

my virgin wrists look for some pain to borrow, my open mouth looks for some shit to swallow
anticipation of regret, it's coming tomorrow
shaped by your hand, do your best to make me hollow
I lie awake, play out the day's mistakes, I need a reason to start this day
am I the only one who feels this way? am I the only one afraid to face
it's not your fault it's mine I'm guilty of your crime
at least for you it's true, I hurt myself just to lie to you, I hurt myself just to make it smooth, I swallow glass and smile just to please you, just to impress you
never felt so alive as when I've felt like dying, never fell so hard as when I failed at trying
the only friends I need are ink and privacy
living in fears, feeling inferior, acid burns in the back of my throat, I think I swallowed my heart, that's what it feels like
eyes are papercuts, salt burns my mind
your eyes are razorblades, cut me like suicide
sometimes it hurts just to be alive
please don't recognise this fear, swallow some bravery and go for it all
beat my fist against the wall, the wall keeps winning and the room starts spinning
it's easier to make noise than to stare straight ahead, it's easier to hide than to get out of bed
pick myself up one more time, sometimes it hurts to try
your eyes are razorblades, cut me with suicide, paralyse me with fear