CONFESSIONS (NGIKHULUMA NGIQINISO) | Soulful Amapiano Healing Anthem by Big Nash.

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CONFESSIONS (NGIKHULUMA NGIQINISO) | Soulful Amapiano Healing Anthem by Big Nash


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CONFESSIONS (Ngikhuluma Ngiqiniso) is a deeply emotional Soulful Amapiano healing anthem by Big Nash. This song is about finally finding the courage to speak your truth after loving too much, staying too long, and losing yourself in the process.

With husky hoarse vocals, deep log drums, warm pads and hypnotic Zulu chants, this track takes you on an 8-minute emotional journey from pain to truth, from silence to release, and from heartbreak to self-love.

If you’ve ever stayed in something that was breaking you… if you’ve ever loved past your limits… this song is for you.

This is not just music. This is therapy in rhythm.
This is CONFESSIONS.



LONG EMOTIONAL STORY (INCORPORATING LYRICS)


This song begins in silence… the kind of silence that looks calm from the outside, but is screaming inside. The first whisper says everything before the beat even arrives:

Mmm… hawu… Ngikhuluma nami namuhla… This is not for you… This is for my heart.

That line alone is already a confession. It’s the moment someone finally chooses themselves after years of shrinking, forgiving, waiting, and pretending. When she says “Silence almost killed me”, it’s not dramatic — it’s real. Because silence is where pain hides. Silence is where women lose themselves slowly without anyone noticing.

Then the truth starts to pour out:

I held your secrets like rosary beads, counted your lies in my sleep…

This is the story of loving someone so deeply that you protect their lies more than your own heart. She didn’t just love — she carried. She cooked love in a broken pot, fed dreams with empty hands, stayed even when she knew she couldn’t.

Ngathi ngiyakuthanda, even when I knew I can’t.

That’s the most painful type of love — loving while already empty. Loving while disappearing. Loving while your soul is begging you to leave.

The pre-chorus feels like a prayer that didn’t work:

I tried to pray it away, tried to dance it away… but truth is heavy baby, it don’t move with the sway.

No matter how much she tried to smile, dance, or pretend — the truth stayed. The tears stayed. The heart stayed tired.

Then the chorus hits like a release you’ve been holding for years:

These are my confessions, Ngiyavuma namuhla. I loved you past my limits, Ngaze ngazikhohlwa…

This is the moment of realisation: the biggest thing she lost wasn’t the relationship — it was herself.

What I lost was not you… it was me.

That line alone breaks people because everyone has lived it at least once. Losing yourself while trying to save someone else.

Verse two is colder, wiser, stronger. The lies don’t hurt the same anymore — they just make sense now.

You said it was a mistake, like mistakes don’t have names…

She sees it clearly now. Not from anger, but from clarity. And when she says:

Brave enough to hurt me, coward enough to stay.

That’s the truth most people are not ready to hear.

Then comes the bridge — the spiritual moment of the song:

Ngiyazikhulula… Ngiyazithanda… Ngiyabuyela kimi…

This is not about them anymore. This is about healing. About returning to yourself. About choosing peace instead of patterns.

And finally, the chant that feels like therapy for the soul:

I choose me, I choose peace. Ngikhetha mina, ngikhetha peace.

This is the ending everyone deserves. Not revenge. Not bitterness. Just peace. Just freedom. Just self-love.

These were not just confessions.
They were a funeral for the old self…
and the birth of a new one.



MESSAGE TO FANS


This song is for everyone who stayed too long, forgave too much, and lost themselves trying to be enough for someone who was never ready.

If this song touches you, know that you are not weak for loving — you are strong for choosing yourself now. Healing is not loud. Sometimes it starts with one quiet truth: Ngikhuluma ngiqiniso.

I see you. I feel you. This song is ours.

Love always,

Big Nash 💛



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“Ngikhetha mina” 💛
Let’s choose ourselves together.



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