Sinking Into Darkness

I actually made this about a week ago but before I could get to making it into video form I went to get my first dose of covid vaccine and that quickly made me far too fatigued to sit up at my computer and do all the things I usually do for an upload. I got over the initial fatigue after about 2-3 days, but then I began to agonize over the piece, I realised how many more chord changes could have been possible if I just played around a bit more while i was first writing, but then I realised I had kind of already written myself into a 4 chord corner with the melody, and i didn't really feel like going over and heavily revising the piece, so I eventually just dropped it, wasting about another day. then I thought I should just hurry up and upload it as is because it's been a bit of a while, but I guess I've hit an art block with my planetary body based backgrounds, I sat down to make one and absolutely nothing came out, I imagined other things that didn't go along those lines, but I doubt if I have the skill to illustrate them, and even if I did, I'm not in the right headspace to commit to that right now, so again, I pushed this back more days. I was beginning to think I should just leave this one for now, work on something new and then use this at a later time when I want to post during another inevitable art block, but actually that block is exactly where I'm at right now, I guess there's a number of reasons I probably don't need to get into on here, but I think one main thing is that i tend to think in a very linear fashion, and I just couldn't get my mind off this piece and allow myself to move on to something else if i didn't publish it like this, even if it is just screaming into the void. Eventually what i did after debating it with myself is just take a screenshot from the ReMind secret ending that looked obscure enough to not be instantly clocked by most people, while also carrying some semblance of the aesthetic I had in mind (it's quite typical of me in general)


this piece is actually sort of not meant to exist, it was spawned from a small riff I played when trying to make another piece that changed time signatures all the way from 7-2, I gave up on that piece because it was really boringly 1 note per beat with no syncopation so it just felt a bit mathematical and not musical, but when i was playing the 6:8 section i got something like the main melody here, which I then worked on and turned into this, I also thought about changing the time on this to either 5 or 4 and making a real B section, but ol' me decided to just loop it and add some string chords lol.


overall not such a standout piece I suppose but it had a bit of a tragic air to it, which is something i've been wanting to capture for a while, so I enjoy that aspect of it. Although to be honest, unlike most of the music I make, I never had a concise image of what this piece meant or what it could be underscoring, and even after i was done nothing came to me from repeat listening, which is a huge part of the reason I couldn't conceptualize a background at all, just, no thoughts, head empty.


I also thought about making the name of this latin because that can be a pretty surefire way to make something sound like it has more gravitas than it really does, but google translate isn't exactly that proficient at providing anything less than the most obtuse, literal translations, so have this pseudo Kingdom Hearts track title.