DAMIAN ILLIC - TRAUMA Ft QUEENZ

@damian_Illic
Filmed & Edited @cema_au
Mixed & Mastered @denno_jg
Vocals @queenztheofficial

(Lyrics)
All I'm trynna get across,
I hate that I'm the source of your pain,
used to provide an outlet, think I need to recharge - phone calls got me drained.
What more can I say?
My emotions can form hurricanes,
& it all comes in waves -
when you're trynna keep your childhood traumas at bay.
Ay!
How the fuck do I restore any faith -
in God when he slammed the door in my face,
like bad luck you were born this way.
Sick thoughts in my brain,
knockin about like when pinballs ricochet,
all I do is pause & replay,
like over & Over & OVER AGAIN!
Frozen disdain for the ice that brings that cold sobering shame,
wish I could just alter my name & reshape this sort of adult I became.
It's my fault I'm too blame,
I try to pick the more cautionary lane,
gets hard trynna stay on track its like you make the geographical coordinates change.
guess I'll move foward then hey?
Don't think I can take you with me,
coz I don't wanna torture you babe it's ok you dont have to go & say you'll miss me,
just know we'll be one within me,
you're a part of me no one can simply -
cut you out of my life you've become intrinsic,
you're my heart & my soul, my lungs & kidneys!
No organ donor,
someone get rid of this flawed persona,
can't breath like I got pneumonia,
picked the wrong side when I flipped the coin up.
Didn't wanna disappoint ya,
in the end I let myself down,
now that's what you call self harm when you hurt other people who just tried to help out.
All kinds of self doubt,
what if I'm just hell bound?
Ay girl what's with the cold shoulder?
Guess it's better than a fiery meltdown.
I don't wanna put you in harms way,
even if I turn my back on our future all I'm left with is a past that I can't face!
Sick of the dark days,
sick of the fallouts,
sick of the tirades,
sick of my own voice,
sick of of the sharp pains,
sick coz I get a bit addicted to our games.
Reminiscing me nick in that car chase,
now you're gone & I miss you mate.
Fuck sake,
always up late,
with a buffet getting stuffed, hungry & I just ate.
Tough break,
at my mum's place but I'm ungrateful, regrettable behaviour underway.
It's like we're in the Hunger Games,
you're my Katness Everdeen,
guess in a way I'm attatched to my enemies,
gacked from the md caps & the ketamine.
So no wonder we have chemistry,
you're Jane to my Jesse Pinkman,
if I'm not willing to work for your love do I know what incentive is then?
but I would fly State to State to get away from a place where I felt indifferent,
doesn't matter where I go in the end whether Adelaide, Perth, Sydney, Melbourne, Brisbane!
From Darwin to Hobart,
I could never run away from my own heart,
& it's getting so hard,
even though I want you close I just hope you go far.

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