to my youth

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''a person having a major depressive episode usually exhibits a very low mood, which pervades all aspects of life, and an inability to experience pleasure in activities that were formerly enjoyed. Depressed people may be preoccupied with, or ruminate over, thoughts and feelings of worthlessness, inappropriate guilt or regret, helplessness, hopelessness, and self-hatred. ''

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i've been in love with this song since the first time i've heard it a couple of years ago. the theme of the song is about the singer's struggle with herself and her intrusive thoughts. i thought the lyrics were perfect for shinji and what he had to deal with in his life.
i tried to split the video in three part, the first one showing how depressive episodes are, the feeling it gives the person struggling with it, how hopeless you feel and how it messes up with your mind. the second part is about those better days, the days where you're able to live, get out and enjoy your life. unfortunately, depression doesn't leave you alone, its always with you and for the final part of the video i really wanted to show how no matter how good of a life you might have, people around you, its impossible to switch your mind off not let it win over you

i used different scenes of ''the weather'' cause i wanted to show the mood shinji was feeling through it, i don't know if any of you got what i was trying to do, if you didn't i can't blame you cause i suck

i usually never make simples videos like that, i feel as if its just a random one, there aren't many effects, there aren't texts, cool overlays or anything like that, but i wanted the message to be clear and to focus on the scenes, the lyrics! i hope its not as rubbish as it looks to me, thank you for watching and sticking up with me even tho this anime is almost all i edit with! i'm amazed you all aren't bored of it yet!


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inspiration :    / zeldaa1234