Secret - Jamie Paige // Kasane Teto SV Cover (If I Could Change)

I don't actually know if that's the actual title of the song. Or if I got the lyrics right. Oh well.

Original:    • Secret Jamie Paige Song (If I Could Change)  

Art, Video, & Tuning by me.

SVP: https://drive.google.com/file/d/19fHv...

Lyrics:
can i share a little secret?
not to insinuate some grand misgivings, i
i just don't know who else could keep it
and you're the only one that might forgive me, i
i don't like the way my clothes fit
and i don't like the way i sound when silence comes
i thought that sharing it could close it
but nothing ever seems to happen when i want

oh god, if i could change
(to be anything i can't be)
or everything could stay the same
(simply rotting in a life-sized landfill, ah)
living just to change
(is there something that i should be?)
when everything just stays the same
(tell me quietly so i can't hear you)

can i share my biggest secret?
it's something horrible or so they tell me, i
i hope you won't think of me different
'cause nothing scares me more than no more normal, i
i hope i don't get any older
not 'cause of childhood or my nostalgia, i
i'm terrified of my own shoulders
i'd give up everything to not become this, i

hold my breath
i stare into the sun
and wonder if it all could fall to none
to reach inside my heart
a million miles apart
begging for a different life
the self that stays unseen
someone that could exist outside a dream
no reply
i trace along the scars
(no matter what you are, you’re always what you are, i)

close my eyes
is anybody there?
there’s something fundamental i can’t share
my fingers at the seams
a horrible machine
begging just to rip it out
i stare into the sun
and wonder if it all could come undone
no reply
do i deserve to die?
just tell me i’m a monster in your eyes

oh god, if i could change
(to be anything i can't be)
or everything could stay the same
(simply rotting in a life-sized landfill, ah)
living just to change
(is there something that i should be?)
when everything just stays the same
(tell me quietly so i can't hear you)