HOW I SURVIVED THE TRAIN WRECK: One Year Later | Swoop, Adam McIntyre, Do We Know Them, H3H3

In this video, I’m reflecting on the last eight years of my life, with a particular focus on 2023—the year of the "toxic gossip train" and the overwhelming wave of reaction and opinion videos about me. After working so hard to move past the drama and step away from YouTube, it was shocking to see my name pulled back into the spotlight in ways I never expected. A year later, I feel it's time to address it all—honestly and vulnerably—sharing how I really felt about people using my name for clicks and the toll it took on my personal life. This video is also about how I’ve managed to overcome it, one day at a time, brick by brick.

I want to be clear: I don’t hold any ill will towards other content creators like Jessi and Lily from Do We Know Them or Ethan, Olivia, and the team at the *H3H3 Podcast*. While I feel they misused their platforms and reach at times, I recognize we’re all human. Jessi and Lily had a show, ran with a story, and amplified the voice of someone with less-than-reasonable intentions. They dismissed my hopes and pleas, and their apology, to me, felt more like victim-blaming than genuine remorse. Though it seemed like they spent 45 minutes gaslighting and only five minutes apologizing, I wish them nothing but happiness and health moving forward. I truly mean that.

Ethan and his crew covered this relentlessly, and while I chose not to appear on their show—I didn’t want to become just another face for their thumbnail—I don’t believe they’re bad people. Olivia is a true gift to their team, and I hope they see that. Ethan made some hurtful remarks, but some of them were true, lol. He eventually corrected a few damaging statements, which I appreciate. I’ve heard the criticism that I went easier on Ethan than I did on *Do We Know Them*, but it’s because Ethan and his team seemed to acknowledge when they crossed the line, while Jessi and Lily seemed upset they even had to address it.

That said, all of this is in the past. The hurt feelings I had a year ago no longer weigh on me, and I genuinely wish all of them well, both professionally and personally. There were plenty of other creators who made videos, too. It was hard watching my name and story used with gaps in truth and strong bias, but I’ve learned to move on. I’m not calling out anyone by name in this video because this isn’t about reopening old wounds. I just wanted to address some specifics here in the description for context—I hope that makes sense!

Ultimately, this video isn’t just about looking back. It’s about reclaiming my sense of self, embracing personal growth, and allowing myself to exist in spaces where I’ve felt unwelcome for so long. It’s also a thank you to those who stood by me through it all—Swoop, Adam McIntyre, my family, and most importantly, my wife Pamela.

This isn’t me returning to YouTube as a regular creator. It’s a step toward self-expression in a way that feels safe and mindful of the risks that come with sharing my life online.

Thank you for being here, and I hope this resonates with those who need it most. 💙


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