【𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭】Живо ли еще это обещание?

I had thought we would marry in that neighborhood. So I gathered my courage and left for Seoul, to the place you called home. Once, trembling with worry, I asked: what if we broke up after I left everything behind and came there alone? You told me that even if I ran away, you would come to where I once lived and search until you found me. Then you would bring me back here, to us. I feared you might leave me; you, it turns out, feared I might leave you. Those words felt like a vow that I should follow you. And so I decided I would, anywhere.

A few seasons passed, and a new worry took root. I had come with my eyes fixed only on you, but you had a whole life here. This place: your friends, your family. A past that shaped you, and a future already unfolding. Work that claimed you, gatherings that kept you away. I understood. Still, I grew restless. Like a dog waiting at the door for its owner to return from the market, I would spend whole days watching the door you had stepped through. Our voices sharpened, and soon the neighbors' complaints filled the air. Each time, head lowered, I caught glimpses of your face, eyes darting to see who had noticed. Wanting all of you (your hours, your heart, your nights, your future) was that greed, or something almost but not quite greed? Before long, we were worn thin. Sadder still was how we got used to it. It wasn't just that we drifted; it was that drifting became familiar. And that, in the end, was why we broke.

You wouldn't know. I stayed there several more months. Before returning to my own life, I quietly let go of many things: things that, if taken, would weigh too heavily on my heart. It's been a long time now since I moved. When I finally left, I fled as if from a haunted house, leaving everything, taking only myself.

Has another year passed since then? Now it is the season when music hums through the open window next door and slips into my own. Your favorite song came from that window, and I thought of you, just for a breath. Faint enough that only I could know. Not as clear as the song itself, yet I hold a faint, blurry hope. Just a little. Does that promise still remain? Is that why you came here? Did you move next door to find me? Are you playing this song to search for me? Calling me, perhaps, to return to Seoul with you again? There are days when expectations I thought long gone return to me. Such a season. Such an evening. Such a tender, cool-hearted moment.

So, does that promise still remain?


This playlist title and description were written by the author and are part of the book 𝑾𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝑾𝒂𝒔 𝑾𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝑰𝒔 𝑾𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝑩𝒆
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00:00 Car, the garden - That Day, Us (그날, 우리)
03:34 Zitten - I Have Something to Say (할 말이 있어요)
08:51 The Black Skirts - The More I Wait (기다린 만큼, 더)
14:09 Damon’s Year - Auburn
16:25 Car, the garden - Together
20:21 Zitten - Whale (고래)
24:21 The Black Skirts - The Shade is a Shadow (그늘은 그림자로)
29:10 Damon’s Year - Gestalt
31:51 Car, the garden - I’m Sorry (미안하다는 말)
36:54 Zitten - White Night (백야)
41:02 The Black Skirts - Everything
45:55 Damon’s Year - Rainbow (rainbow)
48:22 Car, the garden - A Composed Handshake (의연한 악수)
52:04 Zitten - On the Surface (수면에서)
55:48 The Black Skirts - Hyeya (혜야)
01:01:13 Damon’s Year - Put to Sleep (재워)
01:04:21 Car, the garden - Memorize Our Night
01:08:24 Zitten - Sunflower (해바라기)
01:12:59 The Black Skirts - Hawaiian Black Sand (하와이 검은 모래)
01:17:15 Damon’s Year - Mondegreen

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