Epos Nephilo - Bliss and Lunacy - Phases 1 - 4 (The Complete Edition)

Bliss and Lunacy is a project exploring schizophrenia and its effect on the mind and psyche.
Phases 1 - 4 (The Complete Edition)
I do not own or claim to own any of the samples used in this project. This will not be monetised, as it is merely a passion project and not a blatant disregard of copyright.

PHASE 1 - PRODROMAL
A SIDE
Dear Diary,
To start off the day I did the usual. Got changed, brushed my teeth, ate my breakfast, and got ready for another summer’s day. Today I did the usual. Sat at home, maybe went for a walk or two, or a walk to the restaurant nearby. Nothing interesting to report today.
Yours, Dearest Kitty

0:00:00 - 01 - Welcome Back
0:01:55 - A1 - Everyday connection
0:04:57 - A2 - Subtle graciousness
0:07:15 - A3 - Children and god
0:10:33 - A4 - Fundamental stability
0:14:31 - A5 - Mismatched conformity
0:17:37 - A6 - Keep it upbeat

B SIDE

Dear Diary,
Today I didn’t really feel like myself. I woke up feeling light-headed and unbelievably tired, although I had gotten 9 hours of sleep and didn’t go to bed that late last night. Sometimes I wonder why I was brought to this Earth. Is it a blessing or a punishment? What is my reason to live?
I’m feeling a bit blue, hopefully it’ll pass.
Yours, Dearest Kitty

0:21:51 - B1 - Gentle restraints
0:24:58 - B2 - Disconnected brotherhood
0:28:42 - B3 - Locked fermeture
0:32:46 - B4 - Denial in impossible freedom
0:36:53 - B5 - Impending marching wall of eyes
0:39:36 - B6 - Early ascension

PHASE 2 - DIAGNOSTIC
C SIDE
Dear Diary,
I don’t feel very much like myself anymore. I always question everything around me. Why am I here? What is my purpose? Did God create me just to be a punching bag? I don’t even know why I’m here anymore. Anyways… I was sat on the balcony one night and a man was waving at me through the window, but when I looked back he disappeared. That was weird. I also hear voices, but they don’t say anything, it’s more like random gibbering or random sounds. They do disturb me though.
Yours, Dearest Kitty

0:44:31 - 02 - Unwelcome
0:45:19 - C1 - Cracks in the floodgates
0:51:24 - C2 - Spilling delirium
0:54:23 - C3 - The park is closed
0:57:24 - C4 - Ears ringing
1:02:05 - C5 - Istrige feeling

D SIDE
Dear Diary,
The person upstairs was talking to me the other night. He could read my thoughts. He was like a friend to me. I never got to see his face though. He told me he was friendly, and wanted to be my friend. Why should I doubt him? I don’t know if it’s him but I see people wherever I go. Sometimes they aren’t people, they have impossible characteristics or they’re an impossibly large creature, like an ant that’s 10 foot. One time my house with only me and my father inside was swarmed by people. They had no emotion. They just aimlessly wandered my house.
I don’t like this any more. Let me out.
Yours, Dearest Kitty

1:09:12 - D1 - Behind You
1:11:47 - D2 - Qapiriq runa
1:15:41 - D3 - Thoir dhomh rudeigin
1:17:51 - D4 - Descending
1:24:29 - D5 - Melting visage

PHASE 3 - ACUTE ACTIVE PERIOD
E - G SIDE
Dear Diary,
Today I woke up and my head was exploding. Somebody was screaming at me from downstairs. Somebody was poking their bleeding eyes through the wall and would not stop staring at me. Voices tell me it’s my fault. It’s my fault I’m going through this hell. I’m an idiot. I’m stupid. I’m not even real. And I am always reminded.

1:26:36 - E1 - I fall apart and they watch
1:29:27 - E2 - Unaware and sensitive
1:32:08 - E3 - Transcending through dimensions
1:34:31 - E4 - Halcyon recollections
1:37:47 - F1 - GET OUT OF MY HEAD GET OUT OF MY HEAD GET OUT OF MY HEAD
1:45:46 - F2 - I am dormant but an active volcano
1:52:53 - G1 - TRANSCENDIWATCHEYESNOFURY

H - I SIDE
Dear Diary,
My life is a blend, blur and slush of blood, horror, disfigurement and anything but reality.
I wonder why I was brought on this plane of existence. To be God’s restless slave? To just suffer for eternity?
I just wish I could be left alone.

2:02:15 - 03 - Awakening
2:05:48 - H1 - TYRANNIADEATHOSAUR
2:15:12 - I1 - FOREVERETERNALCOLLAPSERODE

J - M SIDE
No diary entry was signed 30/08/95

2:27:25 - J1 - Reality, this persistent illusion
2:45:01 - K1 - To the mind that never obeys
2:54:26 - L1 - Everything was beautiful, and nothing hurt
3:07:44 - M1 - All roads lead home

3:24:12 - 04 - Judgement

3:25:54 - Credits

A side photography by Blazepug

To the moon and back, from Epos Nephilo :-)