I Pretend

Lyrics :

Forget you and your endless games.
They wouldn't know the difference between love and blame.
And I wouldn't say that loyalty is something they possess.
At least I haven't seen it through the bitterness and stress.
On the weekends when I'm pretending that I'm something more than numb.
When I work late and it feels like how the future's never come.

And I pretend.
I pretend.
I pretend.
I pretend.

Forget you and the rules you set.
If I give too much, then I'm a tool, a safe and easy bet.
And if I pull away too far, then I'm the one who's letting go.
Text back quick, I'm desperate, move too slow, I'm way too cold.
Can I pretend that I don't see the condition in your eyes?
The love you give the dog and cat, the man you criticize?

And I pretend.
I pretend.
I pretend.
I pretend.

Forget the deal, the silent score.
My value is my function, nothing less and nothing more.
They say a man is loved for what he builds and can provide.
A shaky, conditional respect that withers up inside.
Can I pretend on the weekend that my peace is all I own?
That the empire that I'm building is for me, and me alone?

And I pretend.
Oh, I pretend.
I pretend.
I pretend.
Yeah, I pretend.