𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐢𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐤.

i can’t believe this.
after everything that’s happened the last few months & i finally think, oh, life is starting to look up again for me a slight tiny little bit, i can catch a break - no.

i could go on forever about him & his impact on me. i only knew him personally for not even two years, but he was the first orca i ever laid eyes on & despite the short time, my love for him knew no boundaries. to TRULY have known this whale meant to love him. you couldn’t do otherwise because there was so much love to be found in him that he radiated. he was perfect. an angel-faced giant with a large, magnificent, powerful but so peaceful & calming presence. he took his time in doing everything. he wouldn’t have hurt a fly. he’d have only cuddled with his trainers all day long, if he could.

a huge part of me is gone. one of my main reasons to live. i’m devastated, i don’t know how to go on without him. not even an HOUR before i found out, i was discussing with two of my best friends whether i should book a trip to marineland at the start of may, while i can. then i saw marion’s story, two inouk photos with the caption “hard to digest the news”. i was scared as soon as i saw it, i just knew, but i still asked for confirmation... then not even a minute later, marineland’s post came up. i started shaking, i couldn’t breathe, soon followed by tears. since then i’ve just been crying on & off. my blanket is soaked in tears & snot. everything hurts.

i don't know now whether i should go to marineland. i was so excited to see him again. what i would give to be with him at the glass again, to take another selfie or two, looking at his sweet, sweet, face, staring into his beautiful eyes, mesmerized...

all my love & support goes out to the most amazing trainers as well as some of my best friends who loved inouk just like me. my thoughts are especially with wikie & keijo, who have lost a further family member. it’s scary that the pod has halfened since i got to know them…

the stars shine brighter than they have before. je t'ai aimé, je t'aime et je t'aimerai pour toujours. et si un jour on me demande de parler de moi, je parlerai forcément de toi. thank you inouk for everything💚



original song: les anges- KRN
audio edited by me.
footage & photos are mine except the inouk/moana hula which is cloé’s.