"don't you mind?"

a vent video i made because the past couple of days have been hell for me. the past year, actually. i have felt extremely anxious every single day this year, and it fucking sucks. things will seem like they're getting better, and then something awful happens + right back down the drain they go. i'm constantly paranoid about losing the people i love, especially since my dad passed away when i was a baby. i wouldn't be surprised if i had a heart attack in the next few years at this point. i've got some managers at work crashing out at me all the time, even though i try to work my hardest every day, and i'm even the only person who skips the paid breaks so i can work even harder.

the only person i have besides my mom is leaving me in a couple months, and a ton of people laugh at me all the time and say stuff like that they're scared of me + that i'm "crazy." ik i'm meeting eden again next month and going to his concert, but it's hard to feel excited about it when i have so much bad stuff happening. it's times like this where i miss my ex situationship (someone irl). she told me if we didn't find anyone when we got older, we would get married. last i heard, she's taken now, and i hope her current partner is giving her the world like i never could. i really could use one of our late night skype calls right now more than anything.

i'll stop here, thank you for reading this if you did. despite the heavy stuff that made me make this video, this is one of my favorite videos i have ever made, and i am incredibly proud of it 🖤

song: the 1975 - me

inspired by: ‪@blood_hxsh‬ ‪@imagine778‬

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