CruceA - So I Get Drunk (Featuring Johnny G)

“I Get Drunk” is a song about trying to belong without ever quite fitting in.
It captures the quiet isolation of crowded rooms, the pressure to perform normalcy, and the temporary escape that comes from numbing the edges just enough to survive the night.

This isn’t a party song.
It’s about disappearing in plain sight - using noise, laughter, and alcohol to mask anxiety, difference, and the feeling of being out of sync with everyone else.

For anyone who’s ever blended into the blur just to feel included, even for a moment.

Music & Lyrics: CruceA
Singer: Johnny G
Part 2 of the trilogy here:    • CruceA - So I Get Drunker (Featuring Johnn...  
Part 3 of the trilogy here:    • CruceA - So I Stay Sober (Featuring Johnny...  

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Lyrics:

Everybody laughing
Like they know the joke
I’m standing in the corner
Trying not to choke

[Verse 1]
I practice faces in the mirror
Before I leave the house
Trying to look normal
Trying to blend in with the crowd
I nod when they’re talking
Like I get the point
But every sentence feels rehearsed
And I miss the joint
They say “just be yourself”
Like that ever worked
Every time I try
I watch the room convert
Eyes slide past me
Like I’m background noise
So I quiet myself
Just to keep the poise

[Pre-Chorus]
I don’t know the rhythm
I don’t know the rules
Everybody moves together
I’m out of tune

[Chorus]
So I get drunk
So I don’t feel out of place
So I get drunk
So I can laugh at the same pace
I get drunk
So I don’t have to explain
Why I don’t belong
Why I don’t stay
Yeah, I get drunk
So I can finally fit
For a moment I’m invisible
And that’s it

[Verse 2]
They talk about memories
I was never in
Inside jokes, old nights
I wasn’t invited in
I fake reactions
I time my smiles
Counting seconds
Till I can exhale
Every glass makes it easier
To stop being me
Every shot turns the volume down
On the anxiety
I don’t want attention
I don’t want control
I just want to feel like
I’m part of the whole

[Pre-Chorus]
When the room gets louder
I get more quiet
So I drown my edges
So I don’t fight it

[Chorus]
So I get drunk
So I don’t feel out of place
So I get drunk
So I can laugh at the same pace
I get drunk
So I don’t have to explain
Why I don’t belong
Why I don’t stay
Yeah, I get drunk
So I can finally fit
For a moment I’m invisible
And that’s it

[Bridge]
I know it’s temporary
I know it’s not real
But sober feels heavier
Than numb ever will
I don’t chase the high
I chase the quiet
I just want the feeling
To stop being violent

[Verse 3]
I wake up embarrassed
With the same old thoughts
Wondering if anyone noticed
Or if I was lost
They’ll say “you were funny”
They’ll say “you were fine”
But they don’t know
That wasn’t mine
I don’t drink to party
I drink to disappear
To blend into the blur
To make the edges unclear
I don’t want to be different
I don’t want to stand out
I just want a seat
Without the doubt

[Final Chorus]
So I get drunk
So I don’t feel out of place
So I get drunk
So I can laugh at the same pace
I get drunk
So I don’t have to explain
Why I don’t belong
Why I don’t stay
Yeah, I get drunk
So I can finally fit
For a moment I’m invisible
And that’s it

[Outro]
When the room goes quiet
I’m still alone
But at least for a night
I wasn’t the ghost
So I get drunk
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