I Have to Be Honest About Why I’ve Been Falling Off Lately

Over the past week, I noticed something that really bothered me.

I wasn’t being lazy. I wasn’t avoiding the work. I wasn’t “off track” in the way I used to be. But I was slipping, sleeping in, letting my mornings drift, and feeling frustrated with myself right as things were starting to move forward.

I spent time reflecting on why that was happening, and what I realized surprised me...

Discipline has never been my problem. I’m comfortable with effort, routines, and pushing myself. What I’m not fully comfortable with yet is earning...being paid, being valued financially, and holding the responsibility that comes with that.

On some level, I think I’ve been avoiding the consequences of earning money, not the actions themselves. Because once people pay you, there’s nowhere to hide behind effort alone. You’re accountable for results, value, and leadership.

In this video, I talk honestly about how my identity around money has been underdeveloped, and how that disconnect has quietly held me back, even while I was doing “everything right,” especially over the past two years of my self-improvement journey.

This isn’t a motivational talk, and I don’t have it all figured out yet. It’s just an honest reflection on what I’m learning about myself as I build in public and step into a bigger version of who I know I can be.

If you work hard but still feel stuck, especially when things start getting real... this will resonate.