"Whenever I want you, all I have to do is dream..."

This is a collage of random videos and photos I captured from late October to late December of 2024.

While some may find this a little too personal or invasive for me to release, I wanted to make this video as a small explanation as to why my content and I started to drift from fun and lighthearted to dark and depressing.

The first two photos were taken by my dear Calico. The rest of the video utilizes short video diaries and pictures of the movie theater I worked at and the two decommissioned auditoriums I called 'home' for several months.

The audio consists of The Everly Brother's song 'All I Have To Do Is Dream' along with the overhead HVAC system and quiet sounds of me writing in one of my numerous journals.

I made this video to demonstrate where I was mentally. The day she passed away, November 4th, I fell asleep in auditorium 3 as this song played on loop. For a week, she visited me in my dreams before the theater became a horrible source of nightmares. After working anywhere between 10-15 hours a day, I began having sleeping problems. In the times I was able to obtain any semblance of sleep, it'd be quickly interrupted by me waking up in cold sweats, crying, and screaming. I still have nightmares about the theater.