Michael + Luke || My last video. [Read description]

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this is the last one. the last muke fan video ever posted on this channel.

im sorry. im truly so sorry for letting you guys down, for taking this huge decision. but i just can't keep like this, because it's already been more than two months since ive started to feel less and less into muke, since ive stopped making videos and even having inspiration to make what i used to love doing so much. so yeah... im sorry. and im sorry for saying it this way, but i just don't believe in muke anymore.

just to be clear, i don't know them, im not in their personal life and im not in their heads either, so i can't know what happened, i can't tell the past, i can't tell if something once happened between them or not, i can't even be sure that something isn't happening right now. i don't know. and like ive always said: you have the right to believe in what makes you happy. if thinking about muke as a couple makes you happy, then do it. personnally, i will never critize the people who never believed in muke, like i will never critize the ones who still think they're having a relationship, or who still love them as a couple. i mean, even myself, i still love them as a couple. i still love the way they stare at each other, i love seeing them touching, always next to each other during interviews, or always talking or laughing during the shows, and i love the way they love each other...

but... not like before. i don't feel like i did before. i used to love every single one of their interactions, i used to fangirl on their relationship, and now... it feels like im far away from them. i mean, i seriously think that i'll always love michael and even the whole band, because they gave me so many happy moments, they made me smile so many times, and i have so many good memories thanks to them. so thats not about my love for this band or for these 4 amazing person. this is only about muke here. this is only because i don't want to pretend i ship them if i don't, and so i can't have inspiration with them if everytime i try to make a video, i start thinking about them and their girlfriends. so yeah... this is why ive decided to stop. this is because i don't feel the same about muke now, this is why this video is the last one who will ever be posted on this channel.

((ok i know ive already talked too much and im so sorry about this, but i promise ive tried to make this short... yes i know ive failed and im sorry))

now, i just want to thank you. to thank YOU guys for being here, no matter if you follow this channel since the beggining or for 2 days, i don't care about that. i just want to thank every single of one you who commented, who told me something cute, who liked or just who watched one or many of my videos... you can't imagine how this channel helped me getting self-confidence, and i know this might sound stupid and ridiculous, but i swear it really did. this youtube channel made me proud of myself, make me think that, maybe, my work wasn't all bad... and all of this is because of you. because of your comments, because of your views, because of your tweets and because of all the love you send me during these almost three years.

3 years. 3 years... can you believe this? 3 incredible years.

and also some incredible numbers... 38 videos. 10 000+ suscribers. the most viewed video with 150 000+ views. 1 000 000+ views in total on the channel...

...can you believe this? because i can't.

i simply can't believe this is my channel, my videos, my hours of work recompensed. i still can't believe this is all for me, and thats why it feels so weird to thank you today. but i had to. i had to tell you in a long-ass paragraph how much i am happy that i had you guys in my life during these three years. so im sorry if i suck at speech but really, i don't know how to thank you, i don't know how to express myself and i can tell you how hard it is right now, for me to type these words on my laptop without bursting into tears. but i guess i just have to make it simple... like...

thank you.
thank you to all of you.
thank you to all of you for everything.
thank you all to of you for everything, from the bottom of my heart.

i love you. i love you all guys, and i truly hope you'll understand my decision, and i hope you'll keep coming here watching the old videos ((because of course im not going to delete the channel, im just going to stop posting on it)), and i also hope you're not too mad at me... i mean... in case one day, the inspiration goes back, i might be click the "upload" button again... who knows?

xoxo.

Charlotte Clemmings.



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