TO THE VERSION OF ME WHO BELIEVED YOUR LIES

You Were Loyal. And They Weaponized It.

You weren't stupid for believing them. You were loyal. And they weaponized it.

This is a letter to the version of me who thought you were telling the truth. Who believed your excuses. Who gaslit myself to keep you comfortable.

You didn't just believe their lies. You helped them lie to you.

If you've ever silenced your intuition to keep someone around—this letter will shatter you and set you free.

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💙 TIMESTAMPS:
0:00 - You Were Loyal. They Weaponized It.
1:00 - You Helped Them Lie To You
2:00 - You Gaslit Yourself
3:00 - You Knew All Along
4:30 - You Betrayed Your Intuition Over And Over
5:45 - You Were Afraid Trusting Your Instincts Would Mean Being Alone
7:00 - The Liar Doesn't Make You Believe
8:00 - You Were More Committed To Believing Them Than Yourself

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🔹 WHAT THIS LETTER IS ABOUT:

This is for anyone who believed lies even when they knew something was wrong. Who silenced their gut to keep someone comfortable. Who chose their partner's version of reality over their own instincts.

You'll learn:
Why loyalty becomes a weapon in the wrong hands
How you gaslit yourself to avoid facing the truth
Why your body knew before your mind would admit it
The childhood wound that taught you to silence your intuition
Why you chose their lies over your own truth

This isn't about them lying. It's about why you worked so hard to believe them.

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💭 MOST QUOTED LINES:

"You were loyal. And they weaponized it."
"You didn't just believe their lies. You helped them lie to you."
"You gaslit yourself."
"You became their accomplice in your own deception."
"The liar doesn't make you believe. They just give you an option."
"You weren't naive. You were just more committed to believing them than believing yourself."
"Your intuition wasn't wrong. You were just taught to ignore it."



🎯 WHO THIS IS FOR:

This letter is for you if:
You believed lies even when your gut screamed the truth
You silenced your intuition to keep someone comfortable
You gaslit yourself to avoid facing reality
You defended them to people who saw what you refused to see
You still don't trust yourself because of what happened
You monitor everything now because you can't trust your own judgment

You weren't stupid. You were loyal to someone who weaponized it.

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⚠️ KEY INSIGHT - YOU GASLIT YOURSELF:

You noticed everything:
→ The texts that came at weird times
→ The stories that didn't line up
→ The way they got defensive over simple questions
→ The phone that was suddenly always face-down
→ The schedule that changed without explanation

But you did something worse than ignoring it.

You gaslit yourself.

You told yourself you were being:
Paranoid
Insecure
Crazy
Controlling

You became their accomplice in your own deception.

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🔄 THE PATTERN - HOW LOYALTY BECOMES A WEAPON:

You were taught early that doubting people you love makes you the bad person.

That loyalty means accepting their version of reality even when it contradicts your own.

So you:
→ Filled in the gaps in their stories
→ Made excuses for inconsistencies
→ Defended them to people who saw the truth
→ Protected your liar from reality

You thought that made you loving.

It made you a target.

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💡 THE SHIFT:

The question isn't "How did I not see it?"

The question is: "Why did I work so hard NOT to see it?"

When you stopped blaming yourself for being naive and started understanding what you were protecting yourself from—everything changed.

The person you betrayed wasn't them. It was you.

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🔹 WHY YOU CHOSE THE LIE:

Here's what nobody tells you about being lied to:

The liar doesn't make you believe.
They just give you an option.

And you choose the lie because the truth costs too much:
→ It costs the relationship
→ It costs the future you planned
→ It costs the person you thought they were

Your belief wasn't innocence.
It was self-preservation.

You weren't naive.
You were just trying to survive cognitive dissonance.

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🔹 THE REAL DAMAGE:

You didn't just lose them.
You lost your ability to trust yourself.

Now, even with someone honest, you:
Second-guess everything
Monitor and investigate
Look for proof constantly

Not because you don't trust them.
Because you don't trust YOU.

That's the real theft.
They didn't just steal your time.
They stole your confidence in your own perception of reality.



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