i have come to believe that God's will is for me to understand mental "illness"

what is it that makes me think i'm in control
is it the devil n his minions or is it a definition a clinician will throw at me *always accompanied w/ a handful of pills
i wouldn't be in that mf's office no way
i can't i know i can't, i've proven it time n time again
God can and i really wanna let Him
it depends on the day how much i'm willing to give away
i can still self-destruct regardless of my sobriety
humility is a buoy
we're so lucky to have this form of self-expression that can make sense out of our obsessions
no point in despairing, God's got you
accept whatever it it n ask God to change how you feel about it...watching this i just realized sumin very important...as ocd nutcases we obsess about sumin that we think is gonna change our present state of discomfort n it never really does
a lotta this stuff won't go away n that's okay
so glad i didn't kill myself, it's funny now
it didn't make sense back then but now it does
how is this happening vortex?
patience will pay off
eric came over n helped me figure out how to do twitch
i just learned a new technical word yesterday
i have to clarify all of this trance! stuff...
taking criticism involves reception not manipulation
i am no punching bag damnit
i never wanna say anything mean
i've gotta return this milk bottle n get $1.50 back
i need to remind myself to buy some apple cider vinegar
comedy has BEEN in shambles
it's just me n jake now, that's it
all these other people have sponsors n don't tell the whole truth
i dunno who these people are working for, i just don't take em so seriously
whatever is being presented is not the truth
they are just words that i happen to agree w/
nobody speaks for me but me
the iphone really exacerbated celebrity culture
this country has always been stupidly obsessed w/ celebrities n they have always been used to push political bullshit n social trends
amerihahaha is so boring
i question people that i like n agree w/ n wonder about their true intentions
a lotta people take everything at face value
women will follow the orders of the news cycle since they don't have a masculine husband
this is how they have feminized suiciety
you are giving into their narrative whenever you vote
i'd feel pretty guilty if i got a smartphone
steve jobs is lazarus in hell
begging for that little drop of water...it's never coming you piece of garbage