Jammed Bond (Interlude)

(Ehem, in other news. Well, not news really
It ain't unexpected, ain't it?
Shit happens when you show your real face
Be honest, they said
Open up, they said
We'll understand they- hehe)
...they said

Consequences come and go
honesty is a one way road
Should've done my paperwork
Could've used some softer words


Now it's all done, you can thank me later

What do you mean? Thank you for the venom you spat?

YOU NEEDED THIS, YOU AGREED TO THIS. OTHERWISE WE WOULDN'T BE AT THIS STAGE

I TOLD YOU IT WAS A TERRIBLE IDEA

Was it really? Look, they showed you their real faces

And we showed ours, any difference? Now we're on our own

Better alone than–

You're not throwing that card on me

Right, cause faking a smile is so tempting

You think I was putting up a smile to let everyone think I was okay?
NO, I WAS PUTTING UP A SMILE TO LET EVERYONE KNOW I STILL HAD HOPE IN THEM


What did you do in exchange?

I did everything

Did you?

Real question is: Was it all good?

No, I…

Think about it

We don't need to

That's exactly what we need to do.
Think about what you've done
Think it twice, then think about it another 10 times
Lose some sleep to it if necessary
Let out some tears to it if necessary


I did it
No, I didn't do it
Why did I do it?
It was not wrong to do so
Why did I talk too much?
Why didn't I keep my mouth shut?
Why… Why am I like this?
How can I change this?
Can I change this?
I can't change this
I can't fix this
What do I need to fix?
Am I wrong?
Have I been wrong my whole life?
Will I be wrong my whole life?
I'm not perfect
I'm flawed
I can't be fixed
I have too much flaws
THEY HAVE FLAWS TOO
WHY AM I THE ONE PUSHED BACK?
Can I step up?
Do I keep my ground?
I can… keep my ground